Just go with it.
Blah.
Okay, I do have things to say. But I don't really want to say them, so here is some other stuff:
I can't believe just over a week ago I was on vacation. This has been the longest week ever. Just go with it, as Valor would say.
And I believe there is truth to that (yes, I am about to analyze a Valor-ism). Sometimes we just have to go with the weird changes in our lives and accept that God is in control. I wish my faith was consistent. I wish I could be a strong woman of God, but there is almost the problem. I make it all about my self. I keep trying to change my own heart when really I need to just go with the changes that God would make in me.
But then, the doubt inside of my mind wells up, threatening to take me under in a black sea of hopelessness. It is okay. God will provide.
God will provide
He will provide.
And I will say these words forever, until I am not a small, frightened child peeking out through the dark folds of doubt but am a strong woman of God, standing in the light.
I could pretend that everything is okay, I could hold up my head and say I am fine, but it would all be a lie. I am getting over my initial shock now, but I still know that everything will be okay. He will provide and I will just have to go with it.
Okay, I do have things to say. But I don't really want to say them, so here is some other stuff:
I can't believe just over a week ago I was on vacation. This has been the longest week ever. Just go with it, as Valor would say.
And I believe there is truth to that (yes, I am about to analyze a Valor-ism). Sometimes we just have to go with the weird changes in our lives and accept that God is in control. I wish my faith was consistent. I wish I could be a strong woman of God, but there is almost the problem. I make it all about my self. I keep trying to change my own heart when really I need to just go with the changes that God would make in me.
But then, the doubt inside of my mind wells up, threatening to take me under in a black sea of hopelessness. It is okay. God will provide.
God will provide
He will provide.
And I will say these words forever, until I am not a small, frightened child peeking out through the dark folds of doubt but am a strong woman of God, standing in the light.
I could pretend that everything is okay, I could hold up my head and say I am fine, but it would all be a lie. I am getting over my initial shock now, but I still know that everything will be okay. He will provide and I will just have to go with it.