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wow well i have alot on my mind right now so here it goes...i hate how people cant be real ne more. people dont act like who they really are anymore. and why cant people just be honest...i hate the fact that people talk crap behind their back and they have to find out from someone else..and believe me thats the worst way to find out...friends i love megan to death and alissa also..no matter wut happens babe u will always be my sissy...and as far as guys go..ugh dont even get me started..no guy wants a real relationship ne more...all they want is boooooooty..and im not down for that..why cant they understand how much they hurt a gurl when they lead them on oh yeh blah blah u can say gurls are juss too sensitive all u want but thats not it at all..all gurls dream about is finding that special one that they will be with forver and he will love her like no other and most guyz these days dont care bout that shit they juss care if they get some from a gurl and then dump em like a week later...its hella messed up...or maybe its juss me..this year i must have juss had bad luck with guyz..i dont know..everyone tells me to think positive but im so busy thinkin positive and thinkin about the most perfect relationship that i am blind to the negative stuff and i end up gettin hurt..
i try so hard to keep my life together and i am usually really good at it..u know tryin hard in school and when im unhappy just puttin and smile on and actin like nuthin is wrong..i dont think i can do that anymore...i dont really feel like i can talk to ne one ne more cuz i dont exactly know if they know wut im feeling..now there is certsin plp that i can talk to and im thankful for that..and whats up with females these days and havein so much shit with plp they dont even know... i meen theyre hella racesist too..they look down on u if u like or u goin with someone that is a diff color then you..and then theyll talk shit about u behind your back..and try to break yall up..believe me..been there done that..many times...i dont understand why it is so hard for guyz these days to juss be honest with you..id rather be told to my face then have to hear it from someone else and get really upset...im so sick of vanden too somtimes..everyone aka the parents thinks it like the best school ever or w/e but shoot they have no idea its prolly juss the same as any other school...other thing i dont understand is no matter wut..wen u start to like a guy oh wow here come drama...i meen damn...u cant like a guy for 2 mins without everyone knowing about it and havein to say somthing about it...plp should juss mind there own business and get a life of there own...oh man and this situation that im sittin in right now...is hella cunfuseing..but iono..oh and finals dang dont even get me started on finals..im already havein a bad day as u can prolly tell...cuz i never write this much unless im stressed and upset...or pissed..i guess i juss wish this....that gurls can get there own lives..mind there own business..and not talk shit about plp...and that there was juss one absolutely right guy for u that wud juss show up tom..and you guyz wud be together forever..and he wont juss use u for..well u know...and umm i guess basically thats it soooo any comments on m entry go ahead and spill ur guts out like i did...even though im balling right now...ha..ok im outty bye bye
i try so hard to keep my life together and i am usually really good at it..u know tryin hard in school and when im unhappy just puttin and smile on and actin like nuthin is wrong..i dont think i can do that anymore...i dont really feel like i can talk to ne one ne more cuz i dont exactly know if they know wut im feeling..now there is certsin plp that i can talk to and im thankful for that..and whats up with females these days and havein so much shit with plp they dont even know... i meen theyre hella racesist too..they look down on u if u like or u goin with someone that is a diff color then you..and then theyll talk shit about u behind your back..and try to break yall up..believe me..been there done that..many times...i dont understand why it is so hard for guyz these days to juss be honest with you..id rather be told to my face then have to hear it from someone else and get really upset...im so sick of vanden too somtimes..everyone aka the parents thinks it like the best school ever or w/e but shoot they have no idea its prolly juss the same as any other school...other thing i dont understand is no matter wut..wen u start to like a guy oh wow here come drama...i meen damn...u cant like a guy for 2 mins without everyone knowing about it and havein to say somthing about it...plp should juss mind there own business and get a life of there own...oh man and this situation that im sittin in right now...is hella cunfuseing..but iono..oh and finals dang dont even get me started on finals..im already havein a bad day as u can prolly tell...cuz i never write this much unless im stressed and upset...or pissed..i guess i juss wish this....that gurls can get there own lives..mind there own business..and not talk shit about plp...and that there was juss one absolutely right guy for u that wud juss show up tom..and you guyz wud be together forever..and he wont juss use u for..well u know...and umm i guess basically thats it soooo any comments on m entry go ahead and spill ur guts out like i did...even though im balling right now...ha..ok im outty bye bye