goodbye october. don't let the door hit you on the way out.
charles said last night that october has been crappy and needs to hurry up and go away. i am in agreement.
ricky is doing better and progressing well, so the doctors say. he stumbled a bit on his path to recovery when he came down with pneumonia last week. daddy went up there again to stay last week to help linda out and essentially baby sit rick. take him to the doctor and stuff. he was feeling mostly better from the pneumonia by the time he left on saturday. so that is good. dad said pretty much all he did all week aside from dr. trips was cook for them, sleep and watch tv with rick during the day. with the pneumonia on top of everything else i guess rick wasnt feeling up to much and slept most of the time. dad came home all moody and depressed. ive kind of been avoiding home and i feel bad about it. i'm just tired.
after taking a long look at our money situation charles and i came to the decision that i should quit the vet. actually, charles told me to quit. i've been cranky and moody lately and i feel bad about that as well. he said working 7 days a week was killing me and i needed to just leave. so... this friday is my last day at the vet. that feels wierd. i've been there for so long now. but. it is just not worth it anymore. with the extra hours i've been getting at cvs we should be alright. if charles doesnt leave before the holidays though, things may get kind of tight. but. yeah.
as for the airforce... they are a broken fucking record and i'm getting really tired of it. after telling charles for the third (?) time that they either screwed up a test or forgot to have him do one, he had to go get MORE bloodwork done for these stupid people. and trying to get it done was a nightmare. but. we did. and got everything submitted. and now they keep telling us they'll tell us something definitive by this day. but by the time that day rolls around... they just tell us the same thing again. charles is getting really stressed about it. he said he would prefer they just tell him he failed than to have to keep waiting. thinking about it makes my head hurt. that lady at flight medicine better hope our paths never cross. charles has now had to call his recruiter and get him and his colonel involved since the idiot woman at flight medicine has screwed things up so royally. i would say 'hopefully we will hear something soon'... but those words are so empty now.
michelle miscarried yesterday... john's wife. my sister-in-law. i got a text from charles while i was at work. i nearly cried right then. i feel so horrible for them. they were so excited when john told us at the wedding they were pregnant. i cant even imagine... and while michelle is home in texas, john is out in california for the army. he's been trying to get home but he cant get the red cross paperwork through because someone at the hospital didnt fill something out correctly. charles's mom flew out to texas right after she heard and she's staying with michelle since none of her family live in the states. i talked to her briefly today to see how michelle was doing... she said she was sleeping then but she's emotionally torn apart. i am tearing up right now just thinking about it. i cant even imagine what she's going through. its just... ugh... and charles found out today from his dad that his mom had 3 miscarriages before she finally had john... which makes me wonder if it is possibly something genetic with his family... which is very scary... i dont even want to think about it... bleh.
and the thing with andy's dad makes me so sad. i keep wanting to leave him a note or something but i can think of nothing meaningful to say. i never really talk to him and i would feel kind of stupid if i said something now. i dont know. like kristine said. so many wonderful people and so many horrible things happening to them. life is so depressing right now... :(
sorry that, again, this post is such a downer. i have been feeling very apathetic about posting lately and having been keeping up with you guys like i should. i'm sorry. i love you all and i miss you so much.
ricky is doing better and progressing well, so the doctors say. he stumbled a bit on his path to recovery when he came down with pneumonia last week. daddy went up there again to stay last week to help linda out and essentially baby sit rick. take him to the doctor and stuff. he was feeling mostly better from the pneumonia by the time he left on saturday. so that is good. dad said pretty much all he did all week aside from dr. trips was cook for them, sleep and watch tv with rick during the day. with the pneumonia on top of everything else i guess rick wasnt feeling up to much and slept most of the time. dad came home all moody and depressed. ive kind of been avoiding home and i feel bad about it. i'm just tired.
after taking a long look at our money situation charles and i came to the decision that i should quit the vet. actually, charles told me to quit. i've been cranky and moody lately and i feel bad about that as well. he said working 7 days a week was killing me and i needed to just leave. so... this friday is my last day at the vet. that feels wierd. i've been there for so long now. but. it is just not worth it anymore. with the extra hours i've been getting at cvs we should be alright. if charles doesnt leave before the holidays though, things may get kind of tight. but. yeah.
as for the airforce... they are a broken fucking record and i'm getting really tired of it. after telling charles for the third (?) time that they either screwed up a test or forgot to have him do one, he had to go get MORE bloodwork done for these stupid people. and trying to get it done was a nightmare. but. we did. and got everything submitted. and now they keep telling us they'll tell us something definitive by this day. but by the time that day rolls around... they just tell us the same thing again. charles is getting really stressed about it. he said he would prefer they just tell him he failed than to have to keep waiting. thinking about it makes my head hurt. that lady at flight medicine better hope our paths never cross. charles has now had to call his recruiter and get him and his colonel involved since the idiot woman at flight medicine has screwed things up so royally. i would say 'hopefully we will hear something soon'... but those words are so empty now.
michelle miscarried yesterday... john's wife. my sister-in-law. i got a text from charles while i was at work. i nearly cried right then. i feel so horrible for them. they were so excited when john told us at the wedding they were pregnant. i cant even imagine... and while michelle is home in texas, john is out in california for the army. he's been trying to get home but he cant get the red cross paperwork through because someone at the hospital didnt fill something out correctly. charles's mom flew out to texas right after she heard and she's staying with michelle since none of her family live in the states. i talked to her briefly today to see how michelle was doing... she said she was sleeping then but she's emotionally torn apart. i am tearing up right now just thinking about it. i cant even imagine what she's going through. its just... ugh... and charles found out today from his dad that his mom had 3 miscarriages before she finally had john... which makes me wonder if it is possibly something genetic with his family... which is very scary... i dont even want to think about it... bleh.
and the thing with andy's dad makes me so sad. i keep wanting to leave him a note or something but i can think of nothing meaningful to say. i never really talk to him and i would feel kind of stupid if i said something now. i dont know. like kristine said. so many wonderful people and so many horrible things happening to them. life is so depressing right now... :(
sorry that, again, this post is such a downer. i have been feeling very apathetic about posting lately and having been keeping up with you guys like i should. i'm sorry. i love you all and i miss you so much.