Whatever I do is...
Here comes a big rant.
Ahhh I am fucking pissed everything I do is wrong EVERYTHING.
My mom gets mad at me for hating her my grandmother does Sam got a little upset over it but she knows why so at least I have her to understand me.{Thank god...Thank you Sam I love you)
Anyway I do not want to get off track but I have had it the other day my dad got mad at me because i told my mom to fuck off and i have had it with her and I said she could rot in hell for all I care.
And my dad got mad at me and said this "Do not talk to your mother that way because she will jsut blame me"
But April and Dad are allowed to express themselves by cursing at her and holloring at her I have had it I can not take it any FUCKING MORE I wanbt to fucking die I WANT TO JUST FUCKING SCREAM then me and Sam are talking and she seems upset and me being the stupidest boyfriend in the fucking world.
I asked her what was wrong and then it turned into me saying I do not like when you act like this I worry about you and she said:
Yeah , well you're always like that" that kind of got me mad because she is rigth I am always like 'that'{That meaning acting all depressed and everything}
I am not mad at Samantha at all i hope she doe snot think I am either I am just AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh I want to fucking shout do somethign and get this anger out of me.{If you have a reason for me to get the anger out of me tell me please}
Anyway after that I said we both are and she said: something like I am not always like that. then she said You are everyday{Yet again her powers of observation amase me she is always right I love her jesus I must steal her brain away XP}
She said it pisses her off sometimes and she has every right to be pissed off.
Also I love her {Samantha} so much. I am trying my best not to be like this but it is not my FAULT it is my mothers fault{I do not care what you people say abotu me being a bad son if I talk about my mom this way.} She has never been there for 15 years and then turns out to have a mental Illness and all taht shit I do not care I have a lot to hate about her I am hurt and everyday it gets worse and worse because she will not leave the best thing in the world I have is Samantha I love her so much she helps me so much. I would do anything...ANYTHING in the world to make that girl happy and give her everything in the world because she is the best thing that has ever happened to me she really needs to know all this and I am sorry Samantha if I am depressed every day and weird all the time I am usually worse than this but I keep the pain at bay when I am with you so you are happy and do n ot have to worry about me{Well i try my best to anyway} So I want you to know this if you have a problem with me tell me or we can do something about it okay cause I really need help from you most off all.Here is some more...
But the thing bothering me is that well she is not the only person who has told me that along with others who say your going to hell for the way you treat you mom like my aunt and well guess what? MY AUNT IS A SCUMBAG WHO CAN GO SUCK ON WHATEVER SHE WANTS TO BECAUSE I HAVE HAD IT WITH THAT i AM NOT A BAD SON i AM NOT A BAD PERSON I AM A VERY GOOD KID...
I don;t beat my girlfriend I am charming I am a gentlemen I am friendly to just about everyone I worry about others before myself{I hope I do anyway}
I am nto out getting drunk getting high shooting people stabbing people breaking windows telling teachers to fuck off beating up kids running people over breaking necks attacking people trying to KILLL them for 2 years STRAIGHT
I am not and did not ABANDON my kids for 15 years and do shit fucking all for them like a bitch mom{mine}.
I did not sleep in every day for 15 years and do nothing for my kids bitch at THEM for 15 YEARS 15 YEARS people.
AHHHH WHAT A FUCKING BITCH I JUST WANT TO CRY AND POUND EVERYTHING OUT SO PEOPLE WILL STOP HURTING ME{Manly my mother}
I have had it with THIS if people want to keep on saying things like"Be good to your mom be the better man" Know what Is say to that I say GO FUCK YOURSELF You try dealing with this for 2 FUCKING YEARS.
And if someone says somethign like she gave birth to you have have to she has the right to be treated right. I say this to that" You know what go screw yourself she has no right for anything she is a vindictive woman and takes pleasure in making me cry and suffer and have sorrow in my heart at all times.
And if they something like no she don't yuo must be lying. I say this"I have no time for mentally impared like your self FUCK OFF Bastard.
Also here is a little tale for you....My mom went into the mental hospital 7 times so far she has been on I think 4 different kinds of pills and does not take any of them as of now she resides at 666 Gibbon Street with Me and My Sad And My Sister...And now she will not leave if I do anything...anything at all I am hollored at I am not allowed to express myself.But enough of that I want to get back on the topic of how I really feel about others who ant to call me names and say things like you have to bee good well Like I said FUCK YOU YOU BITCH you have no idea how it feels to go too sleep at night and hope that I will wake up in the morning with nothing sticking in me or if I will never wake up. So thus in conclusion let me say this people who agree with me thanks and if you don't I have no time for your Squabble{I said it OH MY GAWD}
And if someone wants to say this is revenge you can suck my D*** and you wpould probably enjoy it too.
All I have to say now is that it is nothing so trivial or futile as Revenge...
It's just none of your buisness.
Now I will say some of my last tings on my mind.
One:I want people to know this if you want to squabble{I said it again OH MY GAWD}on about me not being a goos son or something like that I will not listen
Two:Go screw yourself your bastards you are making my life a living hell even though it already is hell because of my mom.
Three:Number three always a good one...DO NO EVER....EVER BOTHER ME WITH ASSUMPTIONS EVER AGAIN OR I MAY HAVE TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND BEAT YOU WITH AN UGLY STICK.
Four:To the people who helped me know this nothing in here is about you and I thank you all for your friendship and help and support.
And lastly Number Five:Samantha Do not be mad at me for any of this I love you so much and I say this to warn you...I do not want you hurt by anyone in my family so for no reason should you try and say somethign to my Mother or anyone who knows my family{Even though I know you won't just a warning I thought I would pass along to your from an old man who speaks of wisdom}
Also know this I want you to be happy so please do nto get mad at me for being unhappy or anythign it just can't be helped until the WHORE is gone.
Ahhh I am fucking pissed everything I do is wrong EVERYTHING.
My mom gets mad at me for hating her my grandmother does Sam got a little upset over it but she knows why so at least I have her to understand me.{Thank god...Thank you Sam I love you)
Anyway I do not want to get off track but I have had it the other day my dad got mad at me because i told my mom to fuck off and i have had it with her and I said she could rot in hell for all I care.
And my dad got mad at me and said this "Do not talk to your mother that way because she will jsut blame me"
But April and Dad are allowed to express themselves by cursing at her and holloring at her I have had it I can not take it any FUCKING MORE I wanbt to fucking die I WANT TO JUST FUCKING SCREAM then me and Sam are talking and she seems upset and me being the stupidest boyfriend in the fucking world.
I asked her what was wrong and then it turned into me saying I do not like when you act like this I worry about you and she said:
Yeah , well you're always like that" that kind of got me mad because she is rigth I am always like 'that'{That meaning acting all depressed and everything}
I am not mad at Samantha at all i hope she doe snot think I am either I am just AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh I want to fucking shout do somethign and get this anger out of me.{If you have a reason for me to get the anger out of me tell me please}
Anyway after that I said we both are and she said: something like I am not always like that. then she said You are everyday{Yet again her powers of observation amase me she is always right I love her jesus I must steal her brain away XP}
She said it pisses her off sometimes and she has every right to be pissed off.
Also I love her {Samantha} so much. I am trying my best not to be like this but it is not my FAULT it is my mothers fault{I do not care what you people say abotu me being a bad son if I talk about my mom this way.} She has never been there for 15 years and then turns out to have a mental Illness and all taht shit I do not care I have a lot to hate about her I am hurt and everyday it gets worse and worse because she will not leave the best thing in the world I have is Samantha I love her so much she helps me so much. I would do anything...ANYTHING in the world to make that girl happy and give her everything in the world because she is the best thing that has ever happened to me she really needs to know all this and I am sorry Samantha if I am depressed every day and weird all the time I am usually worse than this but I keep the pain at bay when I am with you so you are happy and do n ot have to worry about me{Well i try my best to anyway} So I want you to know this if you have a problem with me tell me or we can do something about it okay cause I really need help from you most off all.Here is some more...
But the thing bothering me is that well she is not the only person who has told me that along with others who say your going to hell for the way you treat you mom like my aunt and well guess what? MY AUNT IS A SCUMBAG WHO CAN GO SUCK ON WHATEVER SHE WANTS TO BECAUSE I HAVE HAD IT WITH THAT i AM NOT A BAD SON i AM NOT A BAD PERSON I AM A VERY GOOD KID...
I don;t beat my girlfriend I am charming I am a gentlemen I am friendly to just about everyone I worry about others before myself{I hope I do anyway}
I am nto out getting drunk getting high shooting people stabbing people breaking windows telling teachers to fuck off beating up kids running people over breaking necks attacking people trying to KILLL them for 2 years STRAIGHT
I am not and did not ABANDON my kids for 15 years and do shit fucking all for them like a bitch mom{mine}.
I did not sleep in every day for 15 years and do nothing for my kids bitch at THEM for 15 YEARS 15 YEARS people.
AHHHH WHAT A FUCKING BITCH I JUST WANT TO CRY AND POUND EVERYTHING OUT SO PEOPLE WILL STOP HURTING ME{Manly my mother}
I have had it with THIS if people want to keep on saying things like"Be good to your mom be the better man" Know what Is say to that I say GO FUCK YOURSELF You try dealing with this for 2 FUCKING YEARS.
And if someone says somethign like she gave birth to you have have to she has the right to be treated right. I say this to that" You know what go screw yourself she has no right for anything she is a vindictive woman and takes pleasure in making me cry and suffer and have sorrow in my heart at all times.
And if they something like no she don't yuo must be lying. I say this"I have no time for mentally impared like your self FUCK OFF Bastard.
Also here is a little tale for you....My mom went into the mental hospital 7 times so far she has been on I think 4 different kinds of pills and does not take any of them as of now she resides at 666 Gibbon Street with Me and My Sad And My Sister...And now she will not leave if I do anything...anything at all I am hollored at I am not allowed to express myself.But enough of that I want to get back on the topic of how I really feel about others who ant to call me names and say things like you have to bee good well Like I said FUCK YOU YOU BITCH you have no idea how it feels to go too sleep at night and hope that I will wake up in the morning with nothing sticking in me or if I will never wake up. So thus in conclusion let me say this people who agree with me thanks and if you don't I have no time for your Squabble{I said it OH MY GAWD}
And if someone wants to say this is revenge you can suck my D*** and you wpould probably enjoy it too.
All I have to say now is that it is nothing so trivial or futile as Revenge...
It's just none of your buisness.
Now I will say some of my last tings on my mind.
One:I want people to know this if you want to squabble{I said it again OH MY GAWD}on about me not being a goos son or something like that I will not listen
Two:Go screw yourself your bastards you are making my life a living hell even though it already is hell because of my mom.
Three:Number three always a good one...DO NO EVER....EVER BOTHER ME WITH ASSUMPTIONS EVER AGAIN OR I MAY HAVE TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND BEAT YOU WITH AN UGLY STICK.
Four:To the people who helped me know this nothing in here is about you and I thank you all for your friendship and help and support.
And lastly Number Five:Samantha Do not be mad at me for any of this I love you so much and I say this to warn you...I do not want you hurt by anyone in my family so for no reason should you try and say somethign to my Mother or anyone who knows my family{Even though I know you won't just a warning I thought I would pass along to your from an old man who speaks of wisdom}
Also know this I want you to be happy so please do nto get mad at me for being unhappy or anythign it just can't be helped until the WHORE is gone.