Quiet
I feel fucking shitty...
I miss Tristan. He's been working double shifts to train for his boss's old job... I hope that some day he can have a day job so we can actually see eachother... Like...lots... Last weekend we got to spend four days together. It was paradise. I've been feeling sucked of air ever since he's been back at work.
I got home around nine in the morning yesterday... I slept all day and didn't get out of bed until midnight. I just had no reason to get up and do anything. Finally I got so sick of lying around trying to turn the world off that I got up and exercised. I've been randomly lifting weights and doing jumping jacks and crunches...but I can't go ride my bike because it's dark outside and I'm not feeling alert enough to communicate with the fucking curb islands in the middle of the bike lanes.
I really don't even want to be making a post right now...I just have nothing else to do... I'm going to Pannevision in Dallas today around eight, so I can't pretend to be asleep later anyway...might as well be awake...
I hate being honest about being lonely and bored... I hate that when I get lonely and bored I don't really want company... I just don't know what to do with myself in a state like this.
I miss Tristan. He's been working double shifts to train for his boss's old job... I hope that some day he can have a day job so we can actually see eachother... Like...lots... Last weekend we got to spend four days together. It was paradise. I've been feeling sucked of air ever since he's been back at work.
I got home around nine in the morning yesterday... I slept all day and didn't get out of bed until midnight. I just had no reason to get up and do anything. Finally I got so sick of lying around trying to turn the world off that I got up and exercised. I've been randomly lifting weights and doing jumping jacks and crunches...but I can't go ride my bike because it's dark outside and I'm not feeling alert enough to communicate with the fucking curb islands in the middle of the bike lanes.
I really don't even want to be making a post right now...I just have nothing else to do... I'm going to Pannevision in Dallas today around eight, so I can't pretend to be asleep later anyway...might as well be awake...
I hate being honest about being lonely and bored... I hate that when I get lonely and bored I don't really want company... I just don't know what to do with myself in a state like this.