Why...?
I'm sorry for screwing up so much. I don't mean to be a fuck up. I don't mean to fuck up your life. I don't mean to make things hard for you. I try, oh god, I try so hard to make you happy...but it never seems to work. I just can't seem to ever make you happy the way you deserve to be. I always mess up somehow, say something wrong, do something wrong. It's always something. I hope you can forgive me. I don't want to lose you. Oh god, please don't let me lose you. I don't know what I would do without you in my life. I depend on you so so much. Please...please...