if I left this town would you know?
Ran into Allison last weekend and it made me feel awful. My stomach was in my throat for like twelve hours. I didn't get any sleep, and I left early and took the bus home.
It was hard to be in close physically, and still mean as little as I do right now when I'm a million light years away. I am out of sight and out of mind.
I went and talked to her, just because I thought I needed to, and now I'm just a mess again. I mean, I think it was a positive experience, but it's hard for me to deal with the fact that someone who I care so much about really doesn't care about me.
It's just like, I run into her and I feel sick, and I stay away from her, and I feel so forlorn.
I know if we were back together it wouldn't fix anything, because I spent the last year of our relationship feeling like she just didn't care anymore. I just want to feel like I meant something, that I mean something, to this person who had such an impact on me.
Anyway, we're not talking anymore, because I treasure every word, but at the same time, I just don't want to hear from you if you don't care.
I feel like I'm just a shell, and I'm thinking about moving far, far away, but I can't figure out how to do that and pay off my student loans at the same time. Does anyone have any practical advice? Maybe I can join the merchant marine.
I spent most of my time today looking at ducks and chickens and prefab hutches at www.omlet.us today. It made me want a house of my own and some Indian Runners, so I could at least have something to care for. At least my cucumbers are growing. I gave it more soil today so it wouldn't uproot itself.
It was hard to be in close physically, and still mean as little as I do right now when I'm a million light years away. I am out of sight and out of mind.
I went and talked to her, just because I thought I needed to, and now I'm just a mess again. I mean, I think it was a positive experience, but it's hard for me to deal with the fact that someone who I care so much about really doesn't care about me.
It's just like, I run into her and I feel sick, and I stay away from her, and I feel so forlorn.
I know if we were back together it wouldn't fix anything, because I spent the last year of our relationship feeling like she just didn't care anymore. I just want to feel like I meant something, that I mean something, to this person who had such an impact on me.
Anyway, we're not talking anymore, because I treasure every word, but at the same time, I just don't want to hear from you if you don't care.
I feel like I'm just a shell, and I'm thinking about moving far, far away, but I can't figure out how to do that and pay off my student loans at the same time. Does anyone have any practical advice? Maybe I can join the merchant marine.
I spent most of my time today looking at ducks and chickens and prefab hutches at www.omlet.us today. It made me want a house of my own and some Indian Runners, so I could at least have something to care for. At least my cucumbers are growing. I gave it more soil today so it wouldn't uproot itself.