Where do I got to from here?
I've been seriously looking at my situation as of recent. I guess it's because I now have the time.
I got a job recently. I've not been advertising much about it because I don't know how long I will have it because it is a temp job. I hope it lasts awhile, I really really need it. I'm not ready to celebrate being employed until I know I am solidly employed.
Ravenwood is over. It was a good time, even though I spent most of it working and helping people out. Which of course I love doing. However I am not entirely happy with it, nor with a lot of stuff surrounding it. I will, for now, leave it at that.
I in some small way believe I could have done better on my part. However I look back at, and listen to others tell me how much I have done, and I don't worry about it as much. I have strong feelings about it all, not all happy, however we are laying the foundations for something amazing that will blow the roof off of any Steampunk event done in the world. And that's profound for a place as disorganized and out of the way as Northwest Arkansas. Doing something that will not only, and truly put us on the map, but make us a FEATURE on the map.
As long as people involved don't loose their heads and fuck it up, a lot of this year's crap and trouble will be a moot point and one that will only be a bad memory. We can get on to really laying down the party!
This has been a very mixed year. Granted nothing
Now I have some time to myself again, and I'm coming to the realization that has always been there, yet never fully gone through. It's time to move to the next level, and do something new with myself, and once again make the transition to being someone better.
I've ignored many friends, my art, aspects of my life for mixed reasons. I need to reconnect and reestablish bonds that have been strained.
I've let many of my visions that I've been working on for years remain just that, visions. Visions that need to take form.
Most importantly, I need to take care of myself better, and push to continue to become a better person. This has begun and I've finally realized many truths, and realized and seen the potential of what is out there for me. I have grown and changed in the past few years, however it's time to take it further.
No time like the present to get things started.
I got a job recently. I've not been advertising much about it because I don't know how long I will have it because it is a temp job. I hope it lasts awhile, I really really need it. I'm not ready to celebrate being employed until I know I am solidly employed.
Ravenwood is over. It was a good time, even though I spent most of it working and helping people out. Which of course I love doing. However I am not entirely happy with it, nor with a lot of stuff surrounding it. I will, for now, leave it at that.
I in some small way believe I could have done better on my part. However I look back at, and listen to others tell me how much I have done, and I don't worry about it as much. I have strong feelings about it all, not all happy, however we are laying the foundations for something amazing that will blow the roof off of any Steampunk event done in the world. And that's profound for a place as disorganized and out of the way as Northwest Arkansas. Doing something that will not only, and truly put us on the map, but make us a FEATURE on the map.
As long as people involved don't loose their heads and fuck it up, a lot of this year's crap and trouble will be a moot point and one that will only be a bad memory. We can get on to really laying down the party!
This has been a very mixed year. Granted nothing
Now I have some time to myself again, and I'm coming to the realization that has always been there, yet never fully gone through. It's time to move to the next level, and do something new with myself, and once again make the transition to being someone better.
I've ignored many friends, my art, aspects of my life for mixed reasons. I need to reconnect and reestablish bonds that have been strained.
I've let many of my visions that I've been working on for years remain just that, visions. Visions that need to take form.
Most importantly, I need to take care of myself better, and push to continue to become a better person. This has begun and I've finally realized many truths, and realized and seen the potential of what is out there for me. I have grown and changed in the past few years, however it's time to take it further.
No time like the present to get things started.