The Case of the Discordant Dreams
"No one knows what it's like to be the bad man, to be the sad man..."
"I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream. I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean. I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not alright..."
"...sometimes you can't make it on your own."
I'm not dead. I've been quiet for quite some time, but you can disappear and not be dead.
This isn't a bridge, this is a recap. I've been taking notes and have entries that hopefully I'll be able to finish and backdate post, but I don't want to be waiting forever to get from there to here. The following is a quick list of events/entries with the salient information in parentheses.
Counterpoint, Parts 2 and 3 (The last three days of the APA conference in DC. Dr. Bluhm and I presented our paper and it went excellently. I started networking with other people in the field. That night, Dr. Bluhm took me out to dinner with her family to celebrate and I felt like an adopted son, just for one night in the city. I went to H&M and updated my wardrobe.)
Abandoning the Past (I saw Maritza before leaving Carlisle and we had some intriguing issues to discuss involving Justin, my life, and hers. My father and I are still not speaking. As of now, it's been more than a month. My mother and I haven't spoken much, though before leaving I did reveal a few of my theraputic revelations about her, including my inability to trust her, her resemblence to the Mock Wizard, and how I'm losing my ability to love her. I did my best to leave my family behind when I returned to Meadville.)
Course Corrections (DeLamarter and I are together five days a week, I have a Junior Sem with Professor Rose, and I'm in the freshman Chem/Calculus sequence for distribution or pre-med, depending on where I want to go. I haven't been doing well in my classes to date, but that's changing/improving at present)
Wingfest (I headed this Titanic and it actually went off okay. Friday I was on campus from 7am to 9:30pm setting up/dealing with various catastrophes, then I went and played beer pong and did a tour of the party scene, returning home at 2am. The next day I was up and on campus from 9am to 6pm, not only dealing with Wingfest, but the movie as well. It was a fair day, I survived it, and succeeded in some regards. Also, I met a young man who may become my page - he reminded me of me and Jason.)
the Treehouse (There are a few seniors this year I'm getting familiar with and I like it. It's giving me an idea of how to be...a student, a social creature, and a man.)
the Girl's Return (Not exactly out of the blue, but rather unexpectedly, Annie (see How to Be a Villain: The Brain series I) came back into my life from Colorado. I don't know how I feel about this ex-love, but it's a continuing issue that'll resolve itself in time.)
That's a huge overview of what's been happening. I've decided to cancel my radio show, not volunteer at GFC, and cut down on ASG/GAP time to focus more on academics - I need to grossly improve my grades if I want to get into a good Ph.D. program. I also need to get a car, but that's a big problem that isn't easily resolved. For those of you out there with a car - cherish it, use it, and stop bitching about gas prices. It's a small price to pay for mobility and independence.
I'm going to dive back into the present, comment if I make a reference to past events that aren't understood, I can flush it out and I probably won't even realize that I've missed explaining it.
Now we rejoin our program already in progress:
Harlequin, P.I.: Year Two
Vengeance Unlimited
"I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream. I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean. I don't know how I got this way, I know it's not alright..."
"...sometimes you can't make it on your own."
I'm not dead. I've been quiet for quite some time, but you can disappear and not be dead.
This isn't a bridge, this is a recap. I've been taking notes and have entries that hopefully I'll be able to finish and backdate post, but I don't want to be waiting forever to get from there to here. The following is a quick list of events/entries with the salient information in parentheses.
Counterpoint, Parts 2 and 3 (The last three days of the APA conference in DC. Dr. Bluhm and I presented our paper and it went excellently. I started networking with other people in the field. That night, Dr. Bluhm took me out to dinner with her family to celebrate and I felt like an adopted son, just for one night in the city. I went to H&M and updated my wardrobe.)
Abandoning the Past (I saw Maritza before leaving Carlisle and we had some intriguing issues to discuss involving Justin, my life, and hers. My father and I are still not speaking. As of now, it's been more than a month. My mother and I haven't spoken much, though before leaving I did reveal a few of my theraputic revelations about her, including my inability to trust her, her resemblence to the Mock Wizard, and how I'm losing my ability to love her. I did my best to leave my family behind when I returned to Meadville.)
Course Corrections (DeLamarter and I are together five days a week, I have a Junior Sem with Professor Rose, and I'm in the freshman Chem/Calculus sequence for distribution or pre-med, depending on where I want to go. I haven't been doing well in my classes to date, but that's changing/improving at present)
Wingfest (I headed this Titanic and it actually went off okay. Friday I was on campus from 7am to 9:30pm setting up/dealing with various catastrophes, then I went and played beer pong and did a tour of the party scene, returning home at 2am. The next day I was up and on campus from 9am to 6pm, not only dealing with Wingfest, but the movie as well. It was a fair day, I survived it, and succeeded in some regards. Also, I met a young man who may become my page - he reminded me of me and Jason.)
the Treehouse (There are a few seniors this year I'm getting familiar with and I like it. It's giving me an idea of how to be...a student, a social creature, and a man.)
the Girl's Return (Not exactly out of the blue, but rather unexpectedly, Annie (see How to Be a Villain: The Brain series I) came back into my life from Colorado. I don't know how I feel about this ex-love, but it's a continuing issue that'll resolve itself in time.)
That's a huge overview of what's been happening. I've decided to cancel my radio show, not volunteer at GFC, and cut down on ASG/GAP time to focus more on academics - I need to grossly improve my grades if I want to get into a good Ph.D. program. I also need to get a car, but that's a big problem that isn't easily resolved. For those of you out there with a car - cherish it, use it, and stop bitching about gas prices. It's a small price to pay for mobility and independence.
I'm going to dive back into the present, comment if I make a reference to past events that aren't understood, I can flush it out and I probably won't even realize that I've missed explaining it.
Now we rejoin our program already in progress:
Harlequin, P.I.: Year Two
Vengeance Unlimited