crazy beautiful
Francie love, thanks for the convo last night.....I needed to tell you,and only you, whats been going on with me.Have I told you lately that you are wonderful? That boy better be treating you right....lol....you deserve to be happy.Dude, lj hates me....I have to log in over and over again, no matter what I do....but I am still pissed at od....fuckers.But dont worry, I have been writing.....yeah, actually writing....go figure.As I told you last night, I have had reason to write lately.It helps me to stay focused.Shall I write for you and only you? You are the one person who knows my stuff in od.....my past.Its been five months francie, five.I'll never see her again.God how I miss her sweet face.I look at my mom and see that she feels the same....its been a tough road.I cant imagine this christmas without her here.I struggle with wanting someone in my life. I am afraid of committment, afraid of loss. Don't get me wrong.....committment isn't bad....I don't know how to put my feelings on that into words.....perhaps thats just it, a feeling.But that one girl.....whoa......*wink*