Private to Gakuto

[harigin]

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Private at Shishido

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I could live with him staying my friend. I'd just need some time to adjust to that.

But that he thinks I'm fine with him playing my boyfriend even if he doesn't love me just because I'm upset over him not loving me is what makes me angry. I want him to be happy... but how can he be happy when he is tied to my side? Does he really think that I'm so selfish? Am a really so selfish?

[harigin]

He knows you aren't cool with him playing your boyfriend, but if it made you happy, he'd do it.

And...yeah, I think you're a touch selfish. You get jealous if he hangs around and flirts with An cause it's not you. You jumped down his throat when he turned you down.

You being upset makes him feel like hell and because it involves him, he can't do anything about it because the options tick you off. He wants what's best for you. You know that.

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Yeah I told him that I'm jealous at Ann but I also said that I know that I have no right to be. I know that it's wrong.

And I didn't jump his throat until he still wanted to know what I was thinking even if I had told him that I don't want to talk about it.

I feel like shit as well okay? Eiji did a good enough job to give me a bad conscience. I just don't want him to put my happiness above his own because he deserves it much more than I am.

[harigin]

Of course he's gonna want to know what you're thinking. He's your friend. He cares about you and loves you. He's gonna wanna make sure he can help in anyway he can.

You both deserve happiness equally. If he knew you'd put his happiness over his, he'd say he wasn't worthy of it. Don't play a martyr, Gakuto.

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And what do you think I should do now?

wait I bet I know that answer. go back and apologize for being an asshole.

[harigin]

No, but I suggest stop acting like a lovesick thirteen year old girl with all your moping and shit. I miss when you were a cocky, loudmouth who didn't take shit from no one.

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-.- you're right... damn I actually hate you for being right ^^;

[harigin]

Don't hate me because I'm right. Hate me because I have great hair.

(ooc: :D)

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you and great hair? XD Noooo way! My hair is much better than yours. Red is much better than brown anyway.

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My hair is fantastic. I use L'Oreal because I'm worth it.

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or rather because you really need it XD

[harigin]

Puh-leeze. You're just jealous cause you can't grow it out.

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I can't grow it out? Is that a dare? I bet I get prettier hair than you if I'd let it grow xP

[harigin]

I double dare you.

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okay. What's the prize? I'll show you... eventually when I have grown my hair long enough.

[harigin]

You can make somethin' up.