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well, my birthday present (field day fest) got cancelled. now i have to think of something else i want.
but in other news, tonight i had a wonderful evening with tj. i realized i don't talk about him much here; i don't like to. it's too hard to explain my feelings here, i prefer to do it in person. last week at choir show i was PMSing and kind of wanted to be alone with people i don't often get to see, but i loved watching little nemo with him. plus i had big needle cramps. ;P phun!
we both are puzzled as to why we are always drawn back to one another. it's unavoidable. when i feel as far from him as i could possibly be, when i haven't thought of him in a month -- and that's as long as i could ever go without it, or not even that -- he comes creeping back into my mind. when i'm with him i think of nobody else, and he is always, always my friend. it's strange to know, as i know, that he will always be a part of my life, whether friend or lover or husband. but it's very Good, and comforting. if i let myself, i could be happy with him for a lifetime.
but maybe i say too much. maybe i shouldn't talk about it here. it seems too precious.
maybe i should talk about me instead!
i feel different. i feel very very patient, as though i have all the time in the world. but to do what?
i am content. i have two pictures to draw. i like drawing pictures.
but in other news, tonight i had a wonderful evening with tj. i realized i don't talk about him much here; i don't like to. it's too hard to explain my feelings here, i prefer to do it in person. last week at choir show i was PMSing and kind of wanted to be alone with people i don't often get to see, but i loved watching little nemo with him. plus i had big needle cramps. ;P phun!
we both are puzzled as to why we are always drawn back to one another. it's unavoidable. when i feel as far from him as i could possibly be, when i haven't thought of him in a month -- and that's as long as i could ever go without it, or not even that -- he comes creeping back into my mind. when i'm with him i think of nobody else, and he is always, always my friend. it's strange to know, as i know, that he will always be a part of my life, whether friend or lover or husband. but it's very Good, and comforting. if i let myself, i could be happy with him for a lifetime.
but maybe i say too much. maybe i shouldn't talk about it here. it seems too precious.
maybe i should talk about me instead!
i feel different. i feel very very patient, as though i have all the time in the world. but to do what?
i am content. i have two pictures to draw. i like drawing pictures.