My emo ramblings
I feel like my life is starting all over again. Everyone says things like "it takes time" "give it time" "it'll get better"...but who in my situation ever wants to hear that? Some moments I feel like this is for the better, this is what is right, but two seconds is all it takes for my world to crumble down. I just want some stability.
But enough of my complaining. I have a lot of crap to do. I found a new place. Have to move all my crap. I'm not really sure where I'm going to end up by the end of this year. I'm going to be working a ton this summer just to pay off my debt and get back on my feet. All I have to do is just keep telling myself it's possible.
"waiting to exhale" is what I feel like. Maybe I'll start writing again. we all know writing from the darkest places is the best kind.
*sighs*
and just to clarify what's going wrong with my life right now:
1. lyssa and i broke up.
2. i broke my iphone.
3. computer is slowing breaking as well.
4. i had to switch to 3rd shift at work to get a raise to be able to make rent by myself (we're going our separate ways)
5. janesville is suffocating and yet i want to stay because of pokey (lyssa's and my dog)
6. i just feel like crap all around.
But enough of my complaining. I have a lot of crap to do. I found a new place. Have to move all my crap. I'm not really sure where I'm going to end up by the end of this year. I'm going to be working a ton this summer just to pay off my debt and get back on my feet. All I have to do is just keep telling myself it's possible.
"waiting to exhale" is what I feel like. Maybe I'll start writing again. we all know writing from the darkest places is the best kind.
*sighs*
and just to clarify what's going wrong with my life right now:
1. lyssa and i broke up.
2. i broke my iphone.
3. computer is slowing breaking as well.
4. i had to switch to 3rd shift at work to get a raise to be able to make rent by myself (we're going our separate ways)
5. janesville is suffocating and yet i want to stay because of pokey (lyssa's and my dog)
6. i just feel like crap all around.