I think I'm in love...
Yep... it's definate... I'm still in love with him...
And I'm glad.... because things are changing and getting A LOT better for both of us.
We've been talking a lot about everything and he really cares what I have to say about things...
He's getting a second job and really thinking about his future.... even if he doesn't think he is...
Everytime I talk to him he'll say something like oh.. if this doesn't happen I'm going to do this.
I'm glad he has back-up plans and is thinking about things now.
I'm starting to trust him again... and he's starting to trust me.
I've changed a lot for him and I think he's changing for me...
The only thing I'm concerned about is having a baby...
I've been feeling kinda crampy... but not like period crampy...
and I don't know what's wrong, I've never felt like this before...
not even when I had a cyst....
I'm freaking out about everything and getting headaches a lot...
I really should have gone to family planning when I knew I couldn't afford birth control...
But I didn't, I waited instead....
and now it may be too late....
Not that I wouldn't want it...
it's just that I don't want to bring a baby into this world the way my life is right now...
exspecially the way things are between my parents and mikes father...
I'm kinda scared...
But I know my mom and dad wouldn't hate me...
they would just be kinda disapointed that it was happening so early in my life...
But I know that I'm strong enough to handle it and I have people around me I can talk to and who can give me advice.
I'm not alone... and that makes me happy.
I don't know when I'll find out if I am or not...
But I'm sure it won't take long for everyone to know if it's true...
I'll post it on here prob. a couple days after I find out...
I dk... maybe I'm just stressed tho.... I hope so...
Well, not much else to say...
I love Mike and that's it... end of story.
goodnight<333