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So Kenz is going to be gone this weekend. Amazing how alone you can be without one person. ONE. I keep thinking about the phrase Jim Carry said in The Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind... something to the effect... " Why is it everytime someone shows me the slightest bit of attention..i fall in love with them?" It happens. Sad, how such an intense feeling of lonelyness will make you manifest a love with someone you've only made eye contact with. So then it makes you wonder if you do finally fall into a relationship, Do you really liek this person? Or are you just so desperate you make yourself try and feel a certain way.
Its all sad..but necessary(sp). or is it?
Its frustrating, because i deffinatly see "needing" somone as a weakness. But what about wanting someone? Or having someone? I don't know. Is the need for effection a personality trait, or is it another one of those things that we can simply blame the human phsyci? (sp) Lots of questions..yes...yes indeed.
I wonder if you can change the way you think. I know exactly how i think, the pattern of it all, the way i make connections. Some of it i odn't like..i want to change it. Can I? Am i mentally able to train my mind to choose a different way of making connections and choices? Well i'm in the process of testing it out, so i'll get back to you on that one.
The answers to questions---are more questions?..hmmmmmm
Its all sad..but necessary(sp). or is it?
Its frustrating, because i deffinatly see "needing" somone as a weakness. But what about wanting someone? Or having someone? I don't know. Is the need for effection a personality trait, or is it another one of those things that we can simply blame the human phsyci? (sp) Lots of questions..yes...yes indeed.
I wonder if you can change the way you think. I know exactly how i think, the pattern of it all, the way i make connections. Some of it i odn't like..i want to change it. Can I? Am i mentally able to train my mind to choose a different way of making connections and choices? Well i'm in the process of testing it out, so i'll get back to you on that one.
The answers to questions---are more questions?..hmmmmmm