New Years
Well, I actually had a nice New Year's Eve. At first the day started out slow. I didn't get much sleep the night before and I figured I would end up staying at home despite the invites to a few parties I got.
Charlie B wanted me to come hang out. I kind of wanted to at first but then I got depressed and thought I'd just stay home for the night. Then Charlie got on and told me that they miss me and still love me and that he was going to go out tonight but he changed his mind since he heard I was coming over. Then I changed my mind and decided to go anyway. I really have missed hanging out there lately.
Charlie B came and got me and after I got there Charlie played some guitar and showed B a few things he had been wanting to learn. I just sat and played with Pan and listened to the wonderfulness of his sounds. I didn't realize how much I missed Charlie until I got there. I talk to Charlie B quite often online and I still missed hanging out with him too but I haven't talked to Charlie online much so it was a refreshment. Anyway, after I listened to them play guitar for a while Charlie went and got Bryt from work and then they went to a party but only stayed for like 10 minutes and came back. He didn't want to go in the first place and I wish I could have gotten to hang out with them more but they were tired and went to bed soon after. Charlie B and I watched Napolean Dynamite and played Tarot cards. We chatted a bit after that and then he brought me home.
Damn... I forgot to bring Charlie his b-day present and I forgot to give it to Charlie B to take home to him! Well, maybe now he'll have an excuse to come over and get it. It's the first birthday present I ever bought anyone because I don't celebrate them but he made my 20th birthday special so i wanted to make his special too. Coincedently Charlie B bought him almost the same thing I did so I hope he still likes it.
I talked to Dean earlier. He had Brian over and they were eating steaks and drinkin' some beer. I gave Brian the link to my journal and he read some of it. Dean plans on reading it soon but he wont be able to read the protected stuff and I think that it would be best if he didn't anyway because I don't want him to get upset over any of the things I've said in here. I'm used to upsetting him to his face. Not a good thing to admit to but it's true. I can't see how he can still put up with me.
I know he's going to read one entry that I made public and realize that I'm not in love with him right now. I think that will break his heart but I warned him of some of the things in here. I told him that I might let him read some of my other things but I don't know... I like keeping things to myself.
Tuesday I have an appointment. I'll get to see the baby on ultrasound and hopefully find out the sex. I will be happy with either boy or a girl but I do feel like it will more likely be a boy. Maybe it's because I already have a boy and it's just hard to picture me having a little girl.
Dean's bestfriend Todd and his wife Christina are moving back sometime this month. I'm pretty excited about that because they're really cool to hang out with. That will be good for Dean because since we moved to CA most of his old friends went off somewhere else and him and Todd are really close so we'll have some buddies to hang out with that we both like to be around. He doesn't like most of my friends and I don't like his in Ca.
Charlie B wanted me to come hang out. I kind of wanted to at first but then I got depressed and thought I'd just stay home for the night. Then Charlie got on and told me that they miss me and still love me and that he was going to go out tonight but he changed his mind since he heard I was coming over. Then I changed my mind and decided to go anyway. I really have missed hanging out there lately.
Charlie B came and got me and after I got there Charlie played some guitar and showed B a few things he had been wanting to learn. I just sat and played with Pan and listened to the wonderfulness of his sounds. I didn't realize how much I missed Charlie until I got there. I talk to Charlie B quite often online and I still missed hanging out with him too but I haven't talked to Charlie online much so it was a refreshment. Anyway, after I listened to them play guitar for a while Charlie went and got Bryt from work and then they went to a party but only stayed for like 10 minutes and came back. He didn't want to go in the first place and I wish I could have gotten to hang out with them more but they were tired and went to bed soon after. Charlie B and I watched Napolean Dynamite and played Tarot cards. We chatted a bit after that and then he brought me home.
Damn... I forgot to bring Charlie his b-day present and I forgot to give it to Charlie B to take home to him! Well, maybe now he'll have an excuse to come over and get it. It's the first birthday present I ever bought anyone because I don't celebrate them but he made my 20th birthday special so i wanted to make his special too. Coincedently Charlie B bought him almost the same thing I did so I hope he still likes it.
I talked to Dean earlier. He had Brian over and they were eating steaks and drinkin' some beer. I gave Brian the link to my journal and he read some of it. Dean plans on reading it soon but he wont be able to read the protected stuff and I think that it would be best if he didn't anyway because I don't want him to get upset over any of the things I've said in here. I'm used to upsetting him to his face. Not a good thing to admit to but it's true. I can't see how he can still put up with me.
I know he's going to read one entry that I made public and realize that I'm not in love with him right now. I think that will break his heart but I warned him of some of the things in here. I told him that I might let him read some of my other things but I don't know... I like keeping things to myself.
Tuesday I have an appointment. I'll get to see the baby on ultrasound and hopefully find out the sex. I will be happy with either boy or a girl but I do feel like it will more likely be a boy. Maybe it's because I already have a boy and it's just hard to picture me having a little girl.
Dean's bestfriend Todd and his wife Christina are moving back sometime this month. I'm pretty excited about that because they're really cool to hang out with. That will be good for Dean because since we moved to CA most of his old friends went off somewhere else and him and Todd are really close so we'll have some buddies to hang out with that we both like to be around. He doesn't like most of my friends and I don't like his in Ca.