Byousoku 5 cm
So I was lazily browsing the intertubewebs today, and after a series of random clicks I ended up on a community site that Andria used to frequent. This I know, because her rather unique user name was all over the place, and once I checked the profile, I was convinced it was her. I found out she got that job she'd been wanting as a professional translator, and for some fairly big names in the manga industry too, which, you know, is freaking awesome for her. I dropped her a note on the site congratulating her on the success she's having, although I did it with a little reservation. For one, we've not really spoken since...March I guess. Like I said last time I talked about her, I don't know if she's just annoyed with me, or if my timing is shit for finding her on MSN anymore, but it's coming up on 8 years since we met, and I'm still sort of holding out hope that we'll catch each other online that night.
It's really kind of a stupid hope to have, you know. Her and I are so much farther apart in so many ways now, that I almost wonder if this anniversary holds any meaning for her like it used to, and if I should stop applying so much importance to it as well. Is there any point anymore to me staring at an MSN Messenger window with a single name on it 2 nights out of the year (we'd try to meet up on her birthdays as well, or well, I would anyways *sigh*)? She's married now, you know? And yeah, she's complained to me about certain marital stresses, but that's what everybody does, right? They dump all their personal woes in their vaguely-anonymous-but-once-nearly-BFF-material-Internet-friend's ears, because family members can't always be trusted to keep secrets, and griping to a spouse could ruin that partnership depending on what's said. She's got more important things to think about and remember now anyways, than satisfying the longings of a misguided dork who still acts like a little puppy dog whenever he reminisces too much about simpler happier times.
Just when is October 30th going to stop being special to me? God, I feel so retarded about this.
It's really kind of a stupid hope to have, you know. Her and I are so much farther apart in so many ways now, that I almost wonder if this anniversary holds any meaning for her like it used to, and if I should stop applying so much importance to it as well. Is there any point anymore to me staring at an MSN Messenger window with a single name on it 2 nights out of the year (we'd try to meet up on her birthdays as well, or well, I would anyways *sigh*)? She's married now, you know? And yeah, she's complained to me about certain marital stresses, but that's what everybody does, right? They dump all their personal woes in their vaguely-anonymous-but-once-nearly-BFF-material-Internet-friend's ears, because family members can't always be trusted to keep secrets, and griping to a spouse could ruin that partnership depending on what's said. She's got more important things to think about and remember now anyways, than satisfying the longings of a misguided dork who still acts like a little puppy dog whenever he reminisces too much about simpler happier times.
Just when is October 30th going to stop being special to me? God, I feel so retarded about this.