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So, this is what the new FOD looks like. Pretty nice upgrade. Several little things that were broken seem to be fixed now. I still think they should add a running character count to the 'Write In My Diary' page like what they've had on the 'Leave A Note' page for sometime now. The Author Interest thing is handy too. I've found a few new authors to read on there.
I feel like I've lost all interest in random cybering. About 15 minutes ago I was sitting in my usual chatroom and got a message from a girl who wanted to do it. I said ok, and then my brain just sort of locked up on me. I just didn't feel into it, which is a feeling I've had lately for a lot of things that I used to do frequently. I'm just in a general all-around rut. It's really frustrating, not just sexually, but in all ways. I'll be sitting in front of the TV, flipping channels until I've gone through them 3 times, bored out of my mind wanting to do something else, but nothing appeals to me at all.
I'm incredibly lonely too. I just sit here in the middle of the night staring at my AIM (jahardguy) and MSN (hardguy@opendiary.com) lists with nobody online for me to talk to. Of course it's 3am, so naturally nobody would be around to chat with. Of course it's nobody's fault but my own because I don't turn on those programs until the middle of the night when there's nobody else in the house awake so I can have my privacy. Although, it's not like I need any privacy since nothing is happening that would make me need it anyways. God, listen to me whine, I'm so pathetic.
I know I should start leaving notes more often too. I suck horribly in that regard. Everybody that I used to leave notes on frequently probably thinks that I've stopped reading them, which I haven't. I just find myself without comment these days. No doubt that's probably led to the lack of notes left on here lately...well, maybe that and the fact that I'm only posting on average about once or twice a month now compared to a year ago.
I've thought about just walking away from here and letting my FOD get purged in one of their infrequent old content wipes. I just can't though. I'm too attracted to the human element of this place and the people I've been reading about in my favorites list. I've made friends here, several of whom have already vanished without warning, and I don't want to do that to those of you who find this same kind of need to read what I'm willing to share with all of you in my infrequent rambles.
I guess the point of this entry is to say that I'm not going anywhere despite my current lack of interest in what brought me to start writing here. Who knows, maybe this entry will bring about change and I'll start getting back to my old self here.
Knowing my track record, it probably won't. :P
hardguy
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I feel like I've lost all interest in random cybering. About 15 minutes ago I was sitting in my usual chatroom and got a message from a girl who wanted to do it. I said ok, and then my brain just sort of locked up on me. I just didn't feel into it, which is a feeling I've had lately for a lot of things that I used to do frequently. I'm just in a general all-around rut. It's really frustrating, not just sexually, but in all ways. I'll be sitting in front of the TV, flipping channels until I've gone through them 3 times, bored out of my mind wanting to do something else, but nothing appeals to me at all.
I'm incredibly lonely too. I just sit here in the middle of the night staring at my AIM (jahardguy) and MSN (hardguy@opendiary.com) lists with nobody online for me to talk to. Of course it's 3am, so naturally nobody would be around to chat with. Of course it's nobody's fault but my own because I don't turn on those programs until the middle of the night when there's nobody else in the house awake so I can have my privacy. Although, it's not like I need any privacy since nothing is happening that would make me need it anyways. God, listen to me whine, I'm so pathetic.
I know I should start leaving notes more often too. I suck horribly in that regard. Everybody that I used to leave notes on frequently probably thinks that I've stopped reading them, which I haven't. I just find myself without comment these days. No doubt that's probably led to the lack of notes left on here lately...well, maybe that and the fact that I'm only posting on average about once or twice a month now compared to a year ago.
I've thought about just walking away from here and letting my FOD get purged in one of their infrequent old content wipes. I just can't though. I'm too attracted to the human element of this place and the people I've been reading about in my favorites list. I've made friends here, several of whom have already vanished without warning, and I don't want to do that to those of you who find this same kind of need to read what I'm willing to share with all of you in my infrequent rambles.
I guess the point of this entry is to say that I'm not going anywhere despite my current lack of interest in what brought me to start writing here. Who knows, maybe this entry will bring about change and I'll start getting back to my old self here.
Knowing my track record, it probably won't. :P
hardguy
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