It hurts.

[harddog]

Well my friends and anyone else reading this, I managed to really mess up my leg last night about 2400mg of motrin was a start at killin that. It still hurts but there's a couple things I've started to learn, when you kill it in one spot it just moves to a new one. Went from my knee to my heart. Ain't gonna kill me but it ain't gonna help one bit I'll live I always do, somehow, I always manage to come through in the end. I guess I'm just seeing how things have changed so much, some for the better, some for the worst. Even those you thought I'd never push away, I did, it's not right, and it's not fair to them but I did it none the less. The reason I did what I did..... buried amost old things I said I was ok with but never really was, and some of the skeletons in the closet. The pain I carry now is finally weighing on me more than ever before I can feel it constantly, no matter what I do it doesn't leave. I can feel it in my chest, right dead center, I can feel the cracks starting to form agian in my heart, I don't think duct tape and krazy glue is gonna do it this time. Well it was bound to happen sooner or later the rock will break, my knees will buckle, and alas I will fall.

So my friends, and the one I pushed away, in closing it's been a good run it really has been. I'm gonna miss the old days I really am, nothings the same anymore, I must change with the times, I guess me being me isn't gonna cut it anymore.