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wow, words cant describe how i feel inside........
so everything is perfect and i'm happy then one surprise vist makes me even happier and then it all hits me that i wasn't happy until that surprise visit and the problem is that i don't think that i should be happy about that visitor i mean hes been so wishy washy and i have stability else where but then again i always have gone for the jerks. why is it that everytime i think i can be over him he shows back up in my life it woulldnt be such a big deal except its been soo long since i had to think about it and then i see him and all my thoughts come running back into my head its just rediculous i want to like have a day to myself to process whats going on in my life. without anyone influencing my thoughts or decisions. not that there are any decisions to be made. i have made a decision. strike three has come and passed maybe there can be another game some time in the future but for now the game is over. it just sucks to look back at the highlights of the game and see exactly where you went wrong. i guess that i will have to just keep thinking about it so that next time i wont make the same mistakes... and hopefully neither will he..................................................................
sorry thinking out loud......
x Amanda Joy x xoxo
so everything is perfect and i'm happy then one surprise vist makes me even happier and then it all hits me that i wasn't happy until that surprise visit and the problem is that i don't think that i should be happy about that visitor i mean hes been so wishy washy and i have stability else where but then again i always have gone for the jerks. why is it that everytime i think i can be over him he shows back up in my life it woulldnt be such a big deal except its been soo long since i had to think about it and then i see him and all my thoughts come running back into my head its just rediculous i want to like have a day to myself to process whats going on in my life. without anyone influencing my thoughts or decisions. not that there are any decisions to be made. i have made a decision. strike three has come and passed maybe there can be another game some time in the future but for now the game is over. it just sucks to look back at the highlights of the game and see exactly where you went wrong. i guess that i will have to just keep thinking about it so that next time i wont make the same mistakes... and hopefully neither will he..................................................................
sorry thinking out loud......
x Amanda Joy x xoxo