Jul 10, 2005 15:18
I dont know that my life has ever been more crazy than it is right at this moment i want to cry.... hard, there are things that just dont add up and then there are those things that are so perfect that there must be a catch. And there are things that you want but you cant have and there are even more things that you can have but you dont want. And there is always the underlying thought of "WHAT IF....." but in all actuality we all think "what if" this or "what if "that but what if those things happened we wouldnt be any farther ahead then we are right now and nothing would be different because the first thing that would come to mind would be What if and it makes me nothing less than sick to my stomach the way i feel right now because every thing in my life is based on a "what if" Question Right now and its hard to deal with, because What if no one ever asked what if i would have nothing to base my life on right now and that scares me .....alot!
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