oh dear

[hardcorejessie]

i just went outside to have a cigarette bacuse i hadn't had one in like 5 hours

so i was sitting on my front step
and this deer walks by no less than 10 feet away
scared the living shit out of me
but then i jsut sat there n smoked my cigarette and it looked at me and kept walking
for some reason i wanted to scare it away
but i didn't
and im really glad i just watched

i dont feel good
maybe this lack of sleep is why i have this constant headache
but what else is new
i've fucked my body up so bad i doubt it'l ever go back to normal

i just wish i didn't have to sleep alone

atleast fred sleeps on my floor
u can always count of fred

i wana sleep i really do
it just takes soooo much effort

maybe i'll just beat jeff up for like 4 hours tomrow so i get tired at some point for not telling josh i called!
oh wait he can't read this...he wont take me off his god damn block list >:O
stupid older brothers

well..night