a scar is a reminder that the past is real.but what about the ones you can't see.how deep are they?

[hardcorejessie]

i was looking into my own eyes before.
i looked long and hard to try and see the person i was
all i saw was a shell of a girl i used to be
a shell filled with fake smiles and pain
is it true that change means it never goes back to normal?
i need the gleam in them back, a trace of hope
i need to be alive again