Well..
Now that my ass is on UOC, I get like 100 IM's a day. I for sure thought I would have gotten that with MOC, but no, my ass works way better I guess. Doesn't matter much anyway, cause I've been told I'm not aloud to talk to or go see any of the guys that IM me. Not that I would anyway. Who told me this you might ask? Well, this old HS friend that I'm sorta seeing now. I'm not sure I can say we are going out really. Jessica is going out of town for her B-day Friday. God Damnit! My cousin has stolen my best friend. Anywho, maybe me and my boy will party hard Friday then. It's his 21st b-day!! Happy B-day RJA!! Hmmm...after he left tonight me and Jessica talked about him. I've known him for quite some time. All through HS he was with a friend of mine. I use to look at them and be jealous. Well, he came home from AZ after graduating, and just randomly got a hold of me through Classmates.com. Then, one night we hung out. Next thing I know were kissing in the kitchen. He is so much fun. He lets me be silly. Most guys wont put up with it. Hopefully he can. We are like children when we are together. We tickle each other, he squishes my face so I look like a pug, he pulls on my finger in attempt to make me fart, and he requests that I smell his armpits. We are so ridiculous. My new nickname is Retarded Cupcake. See, we are strange. I don't know exactly where this is going. We haven't had that talk yet, but I know I'm having fun. I'm not banking too much on this one though. The last two relationships I had lasted like what? 2 weeks each. Lame. So, I'll just sit back and see where he wants to go with this. I think he is incredibly adorable and could eat him up for the rest of my life. But hey, they always leave, so we will see. He wants me to quit smoking, which I should. He also had a talk with me about wearing certain clothing companies that he wears, and I don't believe in. I hope he likes me for me and doesn't try and change me. I will bend for boys, but only if they show me its worth it, and that they will be there when I have bended. Hmmm... I like this kid alot. It's too soon to tell, but I hope he and I do have fun, and that the end result is a good thing. I've had a hard time becoming comfortable with people the last 2 years. Something always irks me into pushing myself away. I can't ever just be with them. Something is always on my mind. Yeah, we've only been doing whatever we are labeled for a few days, but since I've known this kid for awhile, I'm kind of already comfortable. We haven't really talked about where this is going at all, but I'm sure our lines will be defined soon. He has told me that I'm not allowed to meet guys offline, and that I'm not allowed to be boring, because his gf's can't be boring. Well, I just hope he knows that I adore him, and if he'll let me, I'll be his girly, and be there for him whenever he needs me. Wow! Did I just get a little too emotional. Hmmm...Well, heres to crossing my fingers and hoping this one doesn't run as fast as he can for the door. The worst feeling in the world is watching someone walk out the door. Watching the distance between your bodies grow, and knowing things won't ever be the same. -xoxox-