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I've been thinking. Going through one of those, to quote one of my favorite movies, "what does it all mean things". What does love, or more importantly, being in love mean? Webster's Dictionary defines it as: 1. a fond, deep, tender feeling. 2. have such a feeling for. 3. person who is loved. 4. warm liking. 5. like very much. 6. something that is lovely.
Now, you'd think that if you don't know the meaning of a word you look it up in the dictionary and then you know, right? But a dictionary doesn't tell you exactly what to look for or what you should feel. Is it when you see someone and find yourself instantly attracted? Is it when you hear their voice and you go all quietly soft inside, unable to keep the smile off your face? When you can't ever seem to get comfortable without them curled around you? When you don't feel quite as safe without them beside you? Or when you miss the way they smell? Not purfume, or cologne, or the soap they use. Just them. When no matter how big the fight, how hurtful the insult, should they need you you'd do anything, ANYTHING to make it better for them? What about when you are completely against marrige and children but when you think about having that with them it doesn't seem quite so horrible a fate? When you compare every other date, every other boy/girlfriend, and always find them lacking? When sleeping with someone else just seems......gross? When you can't seem to go a single day, a single hour even, without them passing through your thoughts? To me it seems like this is a big !YES! but others question it. So now I'm confused. If that isn't it what is? Or is it just some old wives' tale meant to give us some hope? If we don't have it does that mean we don't really exist? Does that just make us a shell since love is pretty much the first thing we know upon entering this world? It's impossible to look at it from a clinical point of view. I'm not sure that it can just be explained. That's what gets me.
Now, you'd think that if you don't know the meaning of a word you look it up in the dictionary and then you know, right? But a dictionary doesn't tell you exactly what to look for or what you should feel. Is it when you see someone and find yourself instantly attracted? Is it when you hear their voice and you go all quietly soft inside, unable to keep the smile off your face? When you can't ever seem to get comfortable without them curled around you? When you don't feel quite as safe without them beside you? Or when you miss the way they smell? Not purfume, or cologne, or the soap they use. Just them. When no matter how big the fight, how hurtful the insult, should they need you you'd do anything, ANYTHING to make it better for them? What about when you are completely against marrige and children but when you think about having that with them it doesn't seem quite so horrible a fate? When you compare every other date, every other boy/girlfriend, and always find them lacking? When sleeping with someone else just seems......gross? When you can't seem to go a single day, a single hour even, without them passing through your thoughts? To me it seems like this is a big !YES! but others question it. So now I'm confused. If that isn't it what is? Or is it just some old wives' tale meant to give us some hope? If we don't have it does that mean we don't really exist? Does that just make us a shell since love is pretty much the first thing we know upon entering this world? It's impossible to look at it from a clinical point of view. I'm not sure that it can just be explained. That's what gets me.