happy birthday
So happy fuckin birthday to me. I found out my 'uncle' has cancer. For those of you who don't know who my 'uncle' is, he's my Godfather. He has cancer of the pancreas. So as you can see, my life's been sucky lately.
I've never had anyone close to me die. Or even this sick. I've never heard one of my family members cry before. I've never had to deal with something like this before...not even close.
What if this happens to me too? What if my cervical pre cancer, or whatever the hell it is, turns into CANCER. Mom was saying that if you operate, that it makes it easier for the cancer to spread, like it did her dad, who ending up having lumps all over his body. I can't imagine that happening to my Godfather. Or to me.
I'm scared shitless of EVERYTHING. So any kind of prayers would be appreciated. I've had a horrible past 2 days. Just looking for any sign of hope now.
I've never had anyone close to me die. Or even this sick. I've never heard one of my family members cry before. I've never had to deal with something like this before...not even close.
What if this happens to me too? What if my cervical pre cancer, or whatever the hell it is, turns into CANCER. Mom was saying that if you operate, that it makes it easier for the cancer to spread, like it did her dad, who ending up having lumps all over his body. I can't imagine that happening to my Godfather. Or to me.
I'm scared shitless of EVERYTHING. So any kind of prayers would be appreciated. I've had a horrible past 2 days. Just looking for any sign of hope now.