Too Much Rain
Too Much Rain
Today had so much potential and was really unsatisfying. I feel like I busy myself with other peoples problems on purpose so I don't have to look to deeply into my own. I don't understand why I can't just stop fucking with people on one level or another. I can't even trust myself. It's quite unsettling. I wish I could let my guard down, just for a little bit.
I wish this fucking rain would let up.
I've noticed I'm starting to actively closet myself off from people more so lately. It's nice to really only have to worry about myself, but so isn't having someone to take care of me and give a damn about what happens to me. Since my brush with death, I've made it a point to be more optimistic and enjoy life more. I know how cliche' that sounds but I really am.
I'd like someone to just have fun with and to take my mind off my problems, if only for a little while. Anyone up for helping a scummy kid see a little more daylight to brighten his day?
Today had so much potential and was really unsatisfying. I feel like I busy myself with other peoples problems on purpose so I don't have to look to deeply into my own. I don't understand why I can't just stop fucking with people on one level or another. I can't even trust myself. It's quite unsettling. I wish I could let my guard down, just for a little bit.
I wish this fucking rain would let up.
I've noticed I'm starting to actively closet myself off from people more so lately. It's nice to really only have to worry about myself, but so isn't having someone to take care of me and give a damn about what happens to me. Since my brush with death, I've made it a point to be more optimistic and enjoy life more. I know how cliche' that sounds but I really am.
I'd like someone to just have fun with and to take my mind off my problems, if only for a little while. Anyone up for helping a scummy kid see a little more daylight to brighten his day?