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If my lj is configured correctly, then responces can be posted anonymously.
(I'll post a test comment after i finish this)

So tell me, honestly, do you think I'm self-centered?
dont just say no and try to make me feel better, please, be brutally honest, and think about it first.

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[aldallia]

Now here is the most unbiased response you will EVER get. Why? Because I do not know your core, but I know what I see, I can analyze what you say in entries and I can use the little bit of interaction we've had these past 4 years, giving you the perspective of a completely outside-of-your-realm view. If I'm harsh, it is only how I am and I am not trying to be cruel in saying so. Blunt honesty? You're going to get it:

First off, a generality: yes, everyone is self-centered but who isn't? Even Mother Teresa was self-centered in her desire to sleep when she could have helped more, does that make her a bad person? Certainly not. And as far as that extreme example goes to show, everyone is self-centered even if just a little bit.

Now for you:
Yes, I do think you are self-centered, sometimes more than you should be and you think the whole world is out to punish you for some wrong decision you've made in the past. You refuse to confront that which is in front of you unless you've got someone forcefully pushing it at you, demanding you pay attention. In my opinion, that's a sign of weakness, but I've always been prone to being assigned the 'strong' emotional and mental type so it is what I am accustomed to. But you, you are so quiet and shy, you never explain yourself right away, you leave it up to the minds of those who read what you say, hear you speak, to make up their minds and then have an impression of you that may not be true. And then you wonder why you get so much trouble later on when you claim "no one understands me?", WELL GEE I WONDER! Now what good is it to have someone think one thing for so long only to have their impression shattered by later experiences and then possibly cause the end of their friendship because you were too lazy to be aware of their reactions towards you?

You're surrounding yourself with toadies and its a sign of your weak personality, your insecurity in yourself. Yes, you are self-centered, insecure, duplicitous, and probably a myriad of other things. Perhaps even a citation of an event is in order, like the time you wrote that cruel story about the murder of your bunny. Though later we found it out to be false, that was NO reason to put it up for a reaction because I bet you knew what sort of reaction you'd get: a negative one. And rightly so; what the hell were you thinking then? That no one would complain? That no one would bother to dig in further? I'm sure someone did if it wasn't me. But that is a prime example of how self-centered you can be, that'd you go to ANY lengths to garner attention to yourself. And that my dear dear Simone is not the proper way to go about gaining other people's attention. I'm sure you'd much prefer the nice, positive attention, the calm one, the truly honest attention of someone noticing if you've cut your hair, put on make up, changed your attire somewhat. Positive remarks, about the small things that brighten your day without you noticing. Its that which you want, not this horrible onslaught of comments beating down on your mental pysche, telling you that you are a horrible person, that you have such an extreme personality flaw that requires the sight of others to point it out to you before you finally begin to understand.