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As I settled in my bed last night wrapped in Robert's arms I silently cried. I did not make a sound, I held my body still, and allowed the tears to freely fall down my cheeks. I did not cry out of sadness or any reason caused by pain, it was simply an emotion that came as fast as it went.
My birthday was this weekend, and I didn't expect much. My friends were going out of town, my parents were both working, I hadn't spoken to the rest of my family in weeks, and Robert didn't mention anything. I didn't realize that all of it was a huge lie...a lie planned for an entire month...everyone lied. Robert woke me up Saturday morning so we can run errands and have breakfast nearby, and aside from saying "Happy Birthday"...no one I knew had called.
Walking towards the restaurant...
Robert: Are you okay?
Me: Yeah...I guess I just feel bummed that I haven't heard from anybody
Robert: There's always next year...everyone is busy this weekend
*Robert tells lady at front desk we need a seating for two*
Lady at front desk: Will a booth be fine or would you rather sit by those people?
*Lady points at entire group of friends, family, parents...everyone!*
Me: *I point at them all* You ASSHOLES!
BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!!
By the way, I cried last night because I hope from the bottom of my heart that I do enough for my family and friends to deserve that much love in return.