I Want To Live! (5a/?)
Title: I Want To Live!
Pairing: (Main) KyuMin, (Side) KangTeuk, HanChul, SiMin (one-sided only)
Genre: A little angsty, attempted humour (might fail miserably) and romance
Rating: PG-13 (I SERIOUSLY suck at smut, so there!)
Disclaimer: I have a DREAM! SuJu was my harem!! *gets shot down* fine... they don’t belong to me... *dies*
Notes: Words in ‘italics’ are thoughts.
Summary: Lee Sungmin is a trained hitman by the codename ‘MIN’. His only sole purpose is to kill his assignments regardless of their backgrounds. So why did, one fateful night, on the brink of death, he met Cho Kyuhyun? The one who taught him the meaning of life. But then why life, had to be so full of twisted humour?
The single bed was small and cramped but that was the last thing in Sungmin’s mind because, lying together whilst facing each other, cocooned in each other’s arms in the dark, illuminated only by the shimmering moonlight, all he could think about was, “It’s such a waste to go to sleep when you know that each second is ticking away, bringing you nearer and nearer to the end”. Time is just so precious when you’re spending it together with your loved one, knowing the fact that you’ll be separated once the time is up. It was an arduous task to continue smiling when he is dreading the outcome. Never had he felt such bliss, such happiness, such comfort...
People like him didn’t deserve a second chance.
Killers like him.
Trained to kill mercilessly without any questions asked. It was what he believed in his entire life when he was taken in. The Headquarters is a dark nightmarish place that instilled that very belief in every hitman it trained and produced. The strong shall live and the weak shall die! No feelings, no emotions, no communication. Just empty, cold and dank darkness that surround the each of them. But for once in his life, Sungmin was able to experience the warmth he’d forgotten long, long time ago. The feelings that had laid buried deep within him had came surging back to life!
He was in love.
And his feelings were reciprocated.
The joy of being able to love and be loved. The immense happiness in him was overflowing. He felt as if he soared in the skies, feel the warm breeze soothing his wounded soul. It was just so, so, SO UNREAL! Here he was, lying side by side on the same bed with Kyuhyun, listening to his slow breathing, the steady rhythm of his beating heart and staring at that sleeping peaceful face. This was enough to make Sungmin’s heart do somersaults.
“Are you asleep? Sungmin whispered.
“No.”
Sungmin frowned at the answer. “Then why are you closing your eyes?”
One eye cracked open. “Because I know that you’re admiring my handsome face.”
Sungmin snorted and rolled his eyes. He can’t believe that he’d fallen for an arrogant narcissist who thinks so highly of himself. He retorted, “More like I’m counting the amount of pimples on your face.”
The smile vanished and was replaced by shock. “Serious?!” He began feeling his face and Sungmin burst into laughter. Typical narcissist. Always so concerned about their looks.
“You take things so seriously when it concerns your face.” Sungmin said between his giggling, enjoying the fact that he could make Kyuhyun panic so easily.
Kyuhyun scowled. “I’ll show you funny!” He pounced onto Sungmin and began tickling him mercilessly.
“AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! Hahahaha.... NOOOOOOOO!!!” Struggling for dear life while laughing his arse off from Kyuhyun’s assault, Sungmin tried to wriggle free but failed to do so. So, he mentally decided to fake his pain. “Ow, ow, ow...” He clutched at his bandaged torso in mock pain and curled his body in a protective manner. And it worked. Kyuhyun froze at what he was doing and a look of concern washed all over his face.
“Minnie? Minnie?” He began feeling all over Sungmin’s upper torso, worry laced his voice. “Are you alright?” Through the darkness, he can’t see whether Sungmin’s wounds had started to bleed again or not. “I’ll just go-” He made a quick move to get off the bed when Sungmin grabbed hold of his wrists and tugged them, hard. Surprised, he fell heavily back with a heavy thud onto the bed as Sungmin manoeuvred expertly away from being squished under Kyuhyun’s weight. When Kyuhyun regained his senses and started to protest, Sungmin sat over his stomach, effectively pinning him to the mattress.
“You yield?” Sungmin asked haughtily, hands on his hips in a high-handed manner. He tossed his head slightly to the side and looked down at the helpless Kyuhyun.
But Kyuhyun wasn’t fazed at all but instead, he grinned mischievously. This was a totally different Minnie that he knew. “Nope.” He totally loves this side of Minnie. “But I have to admit that you got me in a rather...” He paused for effect. “...compromising position.” And indicated his head at where Sungmin was actually sitting on.
Sungmin blinked confusedly as his brain tried to process what had just been said. Looking at Kyuhyun’s rather lecherous face and then to where he was sitting before reality finally hit him. He was sitting on Kyuhyun’s...!! OMO!! A dark blush spread over his face and neck at a rapid speed. With a loud squeak, he scrambled to get off but Kyuhyun’s hands clamped down onto Sungmin’s hips, holding him captive at his current position.
“Kyu...?”
Kyuhyun just closed his eyes and merely shook his head. When he opened them again, Sungmin’s keen eyesight could see that Kyuhyun’s eyes had somewhat become... different. The atmosphere was awkwardly silent, only broken when Kyuhyun said, “Come here, Minnie.”
For unknown reasons, Sungmin just obeyed. It wasn’t an order but neither was it a request. There was no hesitation in his actions as he bent forward, supporting his weight on his fours as he came face to face with Kyuhyun’s. Both looked deeply into each other’s eyes, savouring this moment that belonged to both of them in this world created by them. Nobody else existed. No worries and no problems to plague them. Just them. And their love for each other.
Their warm breaths mingled. Their hearts were beating for each other. The atmosphere in the room suddenly became electrifying and heavy. It was then that Sungmin understood that there were no words needed to communicate their love for one another.
“Kyu...”
“Shhh...” One of Kyuhyun’s hands that was resting on Sungmin’s hip slid along his upper abdomen in a tantalising way towards the back of Sungmin’s nape, guiding ever so slowly Sungmin’s head down for a kiss.
The kiss that they had shared earlier was but a chaste one. Now, this kiss was soft and teasing as if it promised that there was more to come. Sungmin’s toes curled and his body felt as if it was floating in happiness, his head swam with a new alien feeling and followed by little bubbles of desire stirring in his stomach. It wasn’t a bad feeling but it felt so surreal to him. He had decided earlier that he like kissing Kyuhyun and would never stop kissing him but oh, that feels so good!
Kyuhyun’s tongue coaxed teasingly at Sungmin’s lips to open, allowing him access to explore the hot and wet cavern. Once in, Kyuhyun deepened the kiss which surprised Sungmin. His eyes popped open and pulled back immediately. With the back of his hand over his slightly swollen lips and eyes wide, Sungmin looked quizzedly at Kyuhyun as if asking him what had just happened. He had never done this before. “Did you just put your tongue into my mouth?”
The corners of Kyuhyun’s mouth lifted. “First time?”
The blush on Sungmin’s face got even darker. With all the blood rushing this quickly to his head, he was sure that he will lose consciousness any second now. But he didn’t want to appear inexperienced like a little virginal teenager. He just shook his head to tell him that that was not true but one look at Kyuhyun’s face, he knew that he couldn’t bear to lie to him and bowed his head, giving a small nod before quickly covering his face with his hands, attempting to block out the embarrassment. Kyu’s gonna hate me! I’m sure of it! Nobody likes a virgin.
Kyuhyun was suddenly overwhelmed with possessiveness. His chest puffed up with pride because he shall be Sungmin’s first and last man. Taking advantage of Sungmin’s momentary troubled mind, he flipped him off and now it was Sungmin’s turn to lie pinned onto the mattress on his back. “Kyu...?”
“Relax.” Kyuhyun brushed the long bangs away from Sungmin’s worried eyes. “I’ll take the lead.” And he cupped Sungmin’s face gently, brushing his thumb softly along the quivering lips. “Open your mouth, Minnie.”
A million questions exploded into Sungmin’s head. How did one do this? Did he need just lie there and let Kyu do all the work? How should he respond?! ARGH!!!!!!! “I...” Before he formed a coherent sentence, Kyuhyun took the opportunity and stole another kiss, this time his tongue slipped in and drowned the protest in Sungmin’s throat. After awhile, he felt Sungmin slowly relax and the widened eyes drooped heavily, Kyuhyun boldly decided to speed up the process of seducing Sungmin.
This was a night that belonged to both of them.
-*-(sorry, no smut here)-*-
Tears rolled down his flushed cheeks. “Kyu, Kyu, Kyu...” Sungmin repeated over and over again. To feel so loved and cherished brought warmth into his already heated body. He twisted his lust-filled body with frenzied desire, desperate for release. All sense of control was now gone, replaced by a feverish need to be possessed and possess.
“Minnie, you’ll always be mine.”
“Yes!” It was because Kyuhyun’s scent. It was intoxicating and addictive, invading his nostrils and turning his brain to mush.
“Mine alone.”
There was no more turning back now. “Please... please!” Sungmin begged as he his writhed for more. It was sheer torture.
But Kyuhyun wouldn’t relent. “Say it!” He was cruel and unforgiving.
“I’m yours!” He screamed, his fingers digging into Kyuhyun’s back almost painfully.
Satisfied, Kyuhyun merely smirked and finally claimed what was his like a prized possession. He is mine and mine alone.
I’m yours forever, Kyu.
-*-
Sungmin’s body felt heavy and sluggish but there was this lingering feeling of satiation that gave him a blissful afterglow. He just lied lazily on the crumpled bedsheets, lazy to move or do anything else because he felt sore all over. It would be so nice to just stay like this forever...
“Minnie?”
“Hmmm?” He answered absent-mindedly. He felt the bed shift down on his side from Kyuhyun’s weight and winced.
“I have to change your bandages. Your wounds started bleeding again from our... romp.”
Sungmin peeked at Kyuhyun who looked slightly guilty. “Whose fault was it?” He accused playfully.
“Mine but you enjoyed it too.” There was a twinkle in his eyes.
“Lecherous old pervert.” Sungmin grumbled but he got up all the same, wincing in pain. “Yah! Couldn’t you have been gentler?! My wounds are already killing me and now my lower body hurts as well!”
Kyuhyun laughed as he began undressing the bandages, taking great care not to aggravate the wounds any more. There was a great risk of infection if he didn’t clean it properly.
“You’re such an impudent and impolite dongsaeng!” Sungmin huffed, refusing to look at him.
He dipped the towel into the warm water and began cleaning the caked blood away. “Aw... I thought we’ve gone past that, hyung.” Kyuhyun whispered seductively. He dabbed the antiseptic over the stitched up bullet wounds and apologized when Sungmin winced at the sudden pain. “After you screamed my name so loudly and you were-” A hand clamped onto his mouth, preventing him from saying further. Kyuhyun smiled at the sight of his Minnie blushing furiously. How cute. Then he licked Sungmin’s hand which the latter withdrew with a loud squawk of surprise.
Stuttering, he pointed an accusing finger at the culprit of his loss for words. “You, you...”
“Yes, me, me what?” Kyuhyun taunted as he dressed the wounds with clean bandages.
“Aish! I give up!”
Laughing, Kyuhyun drew the smaller man into a playful hug and kissed him. When Sungmin responded almost immediately, he deepened the kiss, remembering their night of wild passion but when his hand began to explore lower, a flushed Sungmin pushed him away. “No! My back is still sore!!” He grabbed the comforter and rolled himself into it, as if praying it was some sort of protection against Kyuhyun.
Surprised but not disappointed, Kyuhyun could only watch speechlessly at the thought of how much cuter can Sungmin be?! He leaned down at where Sungmin’s head was hidden under the comforter and whispered evilly, “Welcome.” And he ran off, laughing loudly, to escape the pillow that a glowering Sungmin threw at him.
-*-
Sungmin spent the entire day in bed, pampered and spoiled silly by Kyuhyun’s affections. Every whim was entertained, every need was taken care of and every affection was responded to. Life couldn’t get any better than this. He sighed happily and leant heavily back against the fluffed up pillows behind him, momentarily forgetting his woes and focused on what was his at the moment. “Kyu?”
“Yes, Minnie?” Kyuhyun answered as he picked up their messy clothes on the floor and dumped them into the laundry bag nearby.
“Why are you so nice to me?”
Kyuhyun looked up and stared at Sungmin, giving the are-you-stupid-or-something look. But Sungmin wanted to hear those endearing words again and he stared back at Kyuhyun who silently gave up. “Because I love you.” Kyuhyun’s feet padded quietly towards the bed and sat by his side. “And also because I wanted to take advantage of such a lovely body.” He traced a finger down from Sungmin’s collar bone to his navel.
Sungmin snorted and swatted the hand away. “No way are you going to seduce me right now. I’m still in a lot of pain.”
Kyuhyun just shrugged in mock disappointment. “Your loss.” As he made a move to get up, suddenly, Sungmin’s hand clamped down onto his wrist.
It was now or never. Looking away, he stammered, “I- I need to tell you something.” Swallowing an invisible lump in his throat, he steeled himself and mentally scolded himself to man up! He didn’t want to destroy this perfect moment but the fact that he was leaving the day after tomorrow swam around in his head for some time now, never allowing him any peace of mind. However, he didn’t know how to tell Kyuhyun, not after such perfect love-making.
Kyuhyun patted Sungmin’s head assuredly. “If you don’t want to tell me now, you can always tell me later.” He gathered Sungmin into his arms. “I will always be here for you. No matter what you do or where you go. I will be there.” He whispered into Sungmin’s hair.
Resting his head on the strong chest, Sungmin snuggled closer at the warm contact, murmuring, “Yea, I know.” He closed his eyes. “I know.” There was no way that he will ever be able to utter the word ‘Goodbye’.
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A/N: I have no idea why LJ doesn't allow me to update in one post. So, I'm splitting it into two parts. Onwards to part b!!!
http://harajunko86.livejournal.com/9270.html#cutid1