I Want To Live! (12/?)
Title: I Want To Live!
Pairing: (Main) KyuMin, (Side) KangTeuk, HanChul, YeWook, SiMin (one-sided only)
Genre: Angst, action, attempted humour (might fail miserably) and romance
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: NOT.MINE.
Notes: Words in ‘italics’ are thoughts and sometimes flashbacks.
Main Summary: Lee Sungmin is a trained hitman by the codename ‘MIN’. His ( Read more... )
Their different attractions to each other was really somewhat hard to write because they are so different in characters and also personalities. I didn't want make them too mellow or soft but at the same time, I didn't want to make them too hard and difficult. Because I'm not that familiar with YeWook, I find it hard to talk about them but I will try my best to involve them more. But thank you for saying that the image suits them well. <3
My sister is always pestering me to just write about Kyumin (in other words, just give short parts to the other pairings) and as much as I would like to do that, I feel as if I am compelled to write about what the other characters' roles are in the main pairing's relationship and how it affects all of them. If I just write everything about Kyumin, it would be rather boring because we are affected and influenced by the people around us. Hence, what we do or say is largely dependant on what we are expected to do or say. Or at least, that's what I believe. HanChul's relationship is of a stormy one. It's full of fierceness; sudden and fast. With Heechul's temperament, Hangeng is the only one who can control him. He's defiant and uncontrollable but Hangeng is carefree and loyal. Two opposites attract. Nothing more. They're just pure LOVE.
They're not completely like robots or anything. But Siwon's affections and Sungmin's brotherly love are the only reasons why they are affected so easily by other emotions. Their closeness is the reason why they're not completely brainwashed into being emotionless killing machines; that's why Sungmin found had found it hard to succeed in his first kill (which I will put in in later chapters) whilst Siwon is driven by the need to survive to return to Sungmin's side. Since they were brought in when they were kids, their understanding of human nature only stops there. That's why they still have so much to learn. And yeah. Heechul's relations with the Headquarters is of a sad one but that's why he's just an effective killing machine; he does his work better that way because he never allow relationships or feelings to hold him back.
Phew! The action part was relatively difficult to write. I think I wrote 3 to 4 times before I was satisifed; deleting parts and rewriting them again. Because I'm not familiar with the types of guns, I had to read information on them to effectively create a believable story. you have no idea how funny the my first draft was. Almost unbelievable. If I had published that, I am pretty sure all my readers are going to think, "What the heck is this?!" Hahaha....
I just thought that if their targets were shot and injured, I'm pretty sure they won't hesitate to finish them off so I decided to have the assassins get shot instead. Kinda of a stupid reason but I like my killers weak, vulnerable and injured - makes them more susceptible to kindness and other people's charity.
As of this moment, both Sungmin and Kyuhyun's feelings are getting more and more complicated. Whilst Sungmin knows that he loves Kyuhyun, he still finds it hard to digest everything that has been flung to him in such a short period of time and therefore, making him more confused. Kyuhyun, on the other hand, has not realized his feelings. All he knows is that he feels lust, desire and a strong possessiveness over Sungmin. Both of them still have a long way to go... However, I think Sungmin's character will definitely act according to his heart where his body will react first before his mind can think logically.
I have been rambling. Don't mind me. I'm a little high right now because I'm sleep-deprived. If none of the above makes any sense, just message me again. Hopefully by then, I've gotten enough sleep. Thank you for your looooooooooong comment. I enjoyed reading it. Now, I need to get some shut eye. ZZZzzz...
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