Being Silly

[hara_kiri]

Have you ever had one of those days or times when it seems like everything does not make sense? For some reason, today is one of those days for me. I am not quite sure what we are suppose to do in life. One minute I find it completely gratifying and the next minute is seems like everything is taken away. I am just not sure what I am doing with myself is what I really want to do or if I am just doing it to find some kind of answer or be in the loop. Nothing seems be going the way I would think I want it to be. I feel like there are all these decisions to make and yet I don't understand why I have to make them at that exact moment. I just want to be free. I wish that life wasn't something you had to do but something you wanted to do. Why can't we just live the way we want with nothing saying that you're going to be successful if you do this or a bum if you do that. Seriously, we all make certain choices in life but WHY... we're all going to end up dead anyways. The choices that we make... are they really going to make that big of a difference? I know that if everyone didn't make choices that the world would be a hell hole but I don't understand why we are forced to do things. Ok, so not forced but in order to be happy and/or sucessful there are certain things that one must do... that's stupid!

Ah.... I don't even know what I am ranting about. Forget it because I'll probably regret posting this....