wayyy overdue.
it's been quite some time.
a lot has happened.
new school.
ICC...
played soccer there.
it was really fun
i love those girls
we were ranked among the top 15 in the nation
new friends.
all the wonderfull soccer girls!!
[[ love them lotsss ]]
i absolutely adore B!!
and i've been hanging out with Joanie a lot lately
that's been very nice.
emily's friend Curtis, he is kind of the shit
a lot of other wonderful people :D
new life....
just about everything has changed...
especially with my friends
and my family
my mom has terminal cancer
if you have ever had a knife thrusted into your heart
and dragged around
and slashed from side to side...
that's kind of what this feels like
i love her with all my being.
my hero.
first semester of college is over
it's been one hell of an experience.
a lot of crazy things have happened.
but i can't say i was disappointed
but as far as the actual academics goes...
class sucks and it's boring
apparently nobody at a community college likes to socialize and make friends?
stilll no luck in the guy department
i am almost giving up
would it be out of line for me to join a convent?
nah, but really...
there was someone...
it was going well for a while and then we just stopped talking?
but when it comes down to it,
boys are the least of my worries right now.
life recently became very confusing & hard
my mom has cancer all over her body. in all her bones and organs... everywhere.
this has put a lot into perspective for me
i've definitely learned to put family first
i just wished i could have learned and easier way... :-/
cherish what you have,
you really don't know when you could lose it
[[ they aren't kidding when they say that ]]
i've also learned that you will always have friends coming and going in your life
"the real world", if you will, is a bit harsh like that
sometimes even your bestfriends change
they become people you dont even know anymore
but some stay by your side
and some you will never forget
and contrary to what i used to believe
life is mostly just uncertain...
tomorrow never holds any promises....
-Amanda