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Gosh I feel icky. I'm sorry if this sounds too clingy or sickeningly sweet, but I miss Steven. I get to talk to him on the phone every day, but I want to see him in person. There was this thing at Miss Debbie's wedding reception that said something about how Dan was like the physical stand-in for Jesus...Dan's arms can be like Jesus' arms for her until she gets to heaven. Well, right now Steven is my physical Jesus stand-in. I need a hug from him. (I hope that that didn't sound somehow cold or like I don't like him in the right way or something, but trust me...I just need him.) It's not something I just can talk to him on the phone. Sometimes you just need to be physically held. I feel like crying, but I've been holding it in. In reaction to that, I keep lashing out irrationally at everyone at random times. I apologize if I seem short or grumpy. I just wish death wasn't so sad. Please forgive me if I sound whiny. I'll go now. Keep my family and I and especially my grandpa in your prayers. We think he is going to pass tonight. Pray for him to have Jesus in his heart please. I appreciate the prayers more than you know.