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[happyrollbeans]

so I had begun a post but closed it out coz I'm a stubborn fuck

well,

finishing off where noe of you will know where i left of......

I feel different
unusually complete
the pieces of the puzzle fell into place with no intentual assembly

lately I have felt a hollow space in my heart
something is bothering me
for the first time I don't know why
it's not pain or emptiness
but, at random momment it comes
and out of all of the times it occured
none of them had a repetitive ocurrence
so I'm left bewildered
it's nothing that bothers me except for one time that I was with Liza
though, it shouldn't be anything to do with h3r...
right?
should I be worried?

I wrote a letter to her telling her about everything I came to conclusion about...
how hard it was for me to admit to myself what I was wrong about
and then when I saw myself for who i really am
I pittied myself and for about 2 days I couldn't do anything but cry

well, I think my timing is off
til next time