whats the hell am i thinking

[happynukes]

I really don't know who or what i want in life i just know i want to get this probation thing over and have a decent job

I mean yah the big stuff is something i know i want to do but as far as a relationship with a girl i don't know if it is possible i just can't hang on long enough to know the person and when i do i get scared because I don't want them getting to close to me

I know this leads to my own self distruction