Swinging in the Rain

[happynikki]

walking in the park
looking at the sky
and it seems so dark
as i'm ready to cry

i watch the kids
as they play and have fun
just like i did
only for me that's all gone

i see people so happy
because they have each other
and i get so angry
because it feels like i can't get any better

i start swinging
it's my only getaway
i get higher and higher and i feel like i'm flying
and all my problems seem to go away

but then the rain starts dropping
everyone starts to run
and i keep on swinging
as i realize i'm the only one

i don't ever want to stop
because i don't want to deal with you
you're the one who put me through this crap
and you don't even realize you do

so i keep on swinging
in the rain
thinking and feeling all that you gave me
was just pain...

some of you might have already read this on my poetry site but i post it here for others to read...