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omg this has been ages since ive wrote on this thing i pretty much 4got i even still had this but now ive remebered.. so much has been happening in my life since i last wrote but i cant put it all into words. Last week was crap everything was just going wrong n from there went to worse but hey cant be perfect all the time. 1 highlight tho was i got outta babysitting and got to go out 2 dinner with my friend richmond whose from QLD but again turned bad wen he had to go cos he is great n i love him to death.and i really do miss him. the main thing thats upsetting me is mine n lindsay's friendship like i dont know y but last week i took all my bad mood out on him n i feel really bad n then yesterday i tryed 2 apologize (which was hard cos i h8 admitting im wrong/sorry) but i thought i expressed i was sorry and he kinda just sat there n nodded his head n sed that ok.. but for some reason it didnt feel like either thats what i wanted to hear or he was lieing.honestly i dont know the reason but some wasnt right and now i feel confused. like i pretend like everything was patched up n that everything was back to normal. but that was just to make him feel better. it's really making me angry cos i dont know why its not ok. maybe i should just leave it and let the future decide whats gonna happen. yes i no its only a lil deal but to me its a big deal cos he's my good friend n i dont want me to fuck up our friendship.
Things at skool havent been that great...i wish i couldnt see straight though some people. there lives just an act and personally i dont think they know who they are anymore. but i love them n if thats who they choose to be then there's nothing i can do about it...
plus year 11 sucks and its getting me a bit more stressed than usual
Everything just doesnt seem realisitic anymore.i feel like i live in a fantasy world... even thought i am just being me somehow it feels so weird to feel this way.
Like by reading this you might think.. fucken weirdo who is upset.. im not upset im really happy now. there just certain issues that wen i have to cross them i get upset..lol. make any sense??
Ive been having a ball since i got my L's licence been hooning around the industrial area!! Getting good i tell you! Sometimes im allowed to drive home via lake road.
im looking forward to jess's swavray! (party) this weekend! i love ya Jess! n wat i sed to you saturday night wen we found you wasnt a lie its the truth n i should tell my friends more often how i feel about them. And i hope that you dont think im slack..n just doing this 4 a laugh..lol
But yes there's a diary of some of my current issues and emotions.. the others im feeling cant be put into words..
Be happy now ur up to date with my life!
Things at skool havent been that great...i wish i couldnt see straight though some people. there lives just an act and personally i dont think they know who they are anymore. but i love them n if thats who they choose to be then there's nothing i can do about it...
plus year 11 sucks and its getting me a bit more stressed than usual
Everything just doesnt seem realisitic anymore.i feel like i live in a fantasy world... even thought i am just being me somehow it feels so weird to feel this way.
Like by reading this you might think.. fucken weirdo who is upset.. im not upset im really happy now. there just certain issues that wen i have to cross them i get upset..lol. make any sense??
Ive been having a ball since i got my L's licence been hooning around the industrial area!! Getting good i tell you! Sometimes im allowed to drive home via lake road.
im looking forward to jess's swavray! (party) this weekend! i love ya Jess! n wat i sed to you saturday night wen we found you wasnt a lie its the truth n i should tell my friends more often how i feel about them. And i hope that you dont think im slack..n just doing this 4 a laugh..lol
But yes there's a diary of some of my current issues and emotions.. the others im feeling cant be put into words..
Be happy now ur up to date with my life!