relaxation
I need to write. I need to empty my brain. I need to relax.
What is the price of success? To be put on a pedistal, to be look up to, to have high expectations. What is the cost? To be disallusioned with society. To have no peers. To forget feeling? Is this why we are here? Is this where we strive to be? Is this were we will be? This is where I am. Strength, hope, fear. These words are meaningless, useless. Desire encompasses all. If I want it, I get it. If I need it, I find it. A monster amoung men. Do I have control? or does it control me? More addicting than drugs, encouraged by all, a bedazzled public: a tormented soul. Who put me here? Who is to blame?
i lost it. i dont know where that thought went. its no wonder we cant concentrate and kids have ADD and all that. its unbelievable how screwed up we are. for a while there I thought I was on top of things, I could handle it. i get sucked in just like everyone else. this is sick. I know perfectly well why Chappel ran off to Africa to get away. What are we doing here? Who's idea was this? everyone needs to watch koyaanisqatsi right now.
i dreamed the night before last that I got into a fight with my co-worker. when i got to work i wasnt sure if it were real or not. either way im bothered by him. why do i feel so angry right now? i am feeling.
this just like american beauty, i want to hold on to this moment.. but i have to let it go.
What is the price of success? To be put on a pedistal, to be look up to, to have high expectations. What is the cost? To be disallusioned with society. To have no peers. To forget feeling? Is this why we are here? Is this where we strive to be? Is this were we will be? This is where I am. Strength, hope, fear. These words are meaningless, useless. Desire encompasses all. If I want it, I get it. If I need it, I find it. A monster amoung men. Do I have control? or does it control me? More addicting than drugs, encouraged by all, a bedazzled public: a tormented soul. Who put me here? Who is to blame?
i lost it. i dont know where that thought went. its no wonder we cant concentrate and kids have ADD and all that. its unbelievable how screwed up we are. for a while there I thought I was on top of things, I could handle it. i get sucked in just like everyone else. this is sick. I know perfectly well why Chappel ran off to Africa to get away. What are we doing here? Who's idea was this? everyone needs to watch koyaanisqatsi right now.
i dreamed the night before last that I got into a fight with my co-worker. when i got to work i wasnt sure if it were real or not. either way im bothered by him. why do i feel so angry right now? i am feeling.
this just like american beauty, i want to hold on to this moment.. but i have to let it go.