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I have this odd feeling. Its not love, but there is certainly a connection. In the beginning Alison and I were shaky. She recently told me that it was because she's been so used to saying "No" to things. I apparently was very persistent and wouldn't take that for an answer. My reason is because this girl is something very special. She's smart, beautiful, witty, ambitious, inquisitive, artistic... you know those things you say when you're crazy about someone. Since I've been home from school she calls and texts me almost everyday, and I visited her last week and we spent two days together. We both have agreed that a relationship would be a very bad idea, though she felt she needed to tell me she went on a date 3 weeks ago. I told her that she has no obligation to me and I hope that she feels the same about me. Still, I can't help but feel that I'm going to lose her. I'm also afraid that everything is situational, that if I wasn't leaving for Australia then none of this would be happening. She even mentioned that she doesn't know what it would be like if I wasn't leaving. I know how bad of an idea it is, I failed at keeping a long distance relationship with someone who was only 2 hours away, let alone a 22 hour flight.
She was going on about her first love and how he crushed her. A very odd situation where he was dating two other women besides her but was telling her that she was the one and that he would break up with the others. I asked her why she would even do such a thing, but she said she wanted to do something for herself. She ended up getting scarred pretty badly from the situation which is why I believe the beginning of everything for us was so shaky. I told her for some reason, all she was talking about reminded me of her and I. She asked me if I think we should be in a relationship and I told her, "No." I truly believe that, not because I don't want to but because I know we can't. I know what you're all thinking, or maybe you're not. I couldn't see it working, and I wouldn't want to go over there attached to someone. Call me stupid, but I think its a smart decision.
She agrees with me. She doesn't want me to do that to myself as well. She explained the same thing to me, that we shouldn't feel obligated to each other. The conversation almost ended awkwardly, and I said I didn't want it to end like this. Our conversations never end badly so let's at least end it on a good note. So I explained how hot Kristen Bell is. Then she called me a bad boyfriend and hung up.
I'm afraid I'm doing one of those things where I'm letting that one get away. I know that it would be a bad idea for the both of us. I feel that she is saying a lot of these things to save herself from getting hurt. She did it in the beginning and I'm sure she's doing it now. We both feel the same about the situation, but we both know what's best. Maybe it will continue when I come back, but I'm not going to hold out for it or expect it. Who the hell knows what will happen when I'm in Australia, there maybe something that keeps me there I hope.
Well, moving on from all of that, I just won 750,000 dollars in an email lottery!
Yeah, all I have to do is give them my: scaned copy of my international passport/drivers permit,current telephone/address,country of residence and anything else they could use to take all of my money and steal my identity(I added that last part.)
Yeah, I just have to give all of that information to this guy named Paco Gonzalez(something so generic about that) and I can collect my $750,000!
Cheers.
She was going on about her first love and how he crushed her. A very odd situation where he was dating two other women besides her but was telling her that she was the one and that he would break up with the others. I asked her why she would even do such a thing, but she said she wanted to do something for herself. She ended up getting scarred pretty badly from the situation which is why I believe the beginning of everything for us was so shaky. I told her for some reason, all she was talking about reminded me of her and I. She asked me if I think we should be in a relationship and I told her, "No." I truly believe that, not because I don't want to but because I know we can't. I know what you're all thinking, or maybe you're not. I couldn't see it working, and I wouldn't want to go over there attached to someone. Call me stupid, but I think its a smart decision.
She agrees with me. She doesn't want me to do that to myself as well. She explained the same thing to me, that we shouldn't feel obligated to each other. The conversation almost ended awkwardly, and I said I didn't want it to end like this. Our conversations never end badly so let's at least end it on a good note. So I explained how hot Kristen Bell is. Then she called me a bad boyfriend and hung up.
I'm afraid I'm doing one of those things where I'm letting that one get away. I know that it would be a bad idea for the both of us. I feel that she is saying a lot of these things to save herself from getting hurt. She did it in the beginning and I'm sure she's doing it now. We both feel the same about the situation, but we both know what's best. Maybe it will continue when I come back, but I'm not going to hold out for it or expect it. Who the hell knows what will happen when I'm in Australia, there maybe something that keeps me there I hope.
Well, moving on from all of that, I just won 750,000 dollars in an email lottery!
Yeah, all I have to do is give them my: scaned copy of my international passport/drivers permit,current telephone/address,country of residence and anything else they could use to take all of my money and steal my identity(I added that last part.)
Yeah, I just have to give all of that information to this guy named Paco Gonzalez(something so generic about that) and I can collect my $750,000!
Cheers.