New goals

[happyhell]

I should start to exercise so I can stop being so down all of the time. And feel better about my self. I have grown so negative, and I despise it. I used to be a person who loved school, and that isn't too long ago. We are talking about half a year. Now I'm starting to grow a bit tired of it. I wish to learn, but I also wish to feel like a part of the learning situation. I wish I had the extra energy to do something more than just go to school and be with my best friend, my boyfriend or one other person. And I've actually started to stand up on appointments which I know are going to demand some kind of energy from me.
I know it sound like I'm whining, but at least I have the guts to say I wish to change it. If I only had the ability to get myself together and start doing these things.

My goals for the autumn holidays are to;
- start going to physiotherapy
- send in some applications for some scholarships
- figure out if it exist a psychologist I should start to go to, I know I need to talk with someone I don't know in person. Because I feel like I am to much of a burden upon them
- get my room better organized, maybe even pack down some of the things I've grown away from

I should also do some school work. And write a speech for my moms wedding. And bah, it's too much to do. I just want to go sleep and wake up to go and do something I'll enjoy, something I wish to do. I wish I had a job to get my mind of everyday life. I wish I was full of energy and not of tiredness.

The autumn drains my energy. Worse than ever.