so this is the new year...
i feel like. crap i should have been somewhere else.
why did i do this?
why do i keep on doing this, every single time.now im sitting here all miserably, in front of the goddam computer. larisa is trying on outfits, her friend and eddie are on the floor making out. and i just called ilay, and he's with ladonna mike and melissa. and they're all having soo much found. ilay said he would probably spend new years all depressed, and instead i am the one. i always try to help others, and wind up taking up their pain, and holding it within myself. last new years i did something that i have regretted doing with dimitry, and i havent realized then that that would be the basis of my hate for him. it was last new years fault that i dislike him.
should i take what ladonna said seriously. i fucken hate her now.i just feel like cursing at everything and everyone, and crying my eyes out. every year i make the wrong choice of where to spend my "celebrating", and now im celebrating through tears.
i spoke to stephanie's mom earlier, and she thanked me for not being spiteful about danny and stephanie.
why did i do this?
why do i keep on doing this, every single time.now im sitting here all miserably, in front of the goddam computer. larisa is trying on outfits, her friend and eddie are on the floor making out. and i just called ilay, and he's with ladonna mike and melissa. and they're all having soo much found. ilay said he would probably spend new years all depressed, and instead i am the one. i always try to help others, and wind up taking up their pain, and holding it within myself. last new years i did something that i have regretted doing with dimitry, and i havent realized then that that would be the basis of my hate for him. it was last new years fault that i dislike him.
should i take what ladonna said seriously. i fucken hate her now.i just feel like cursing at everything and everyone, and crying my eyes out. every year i make the wrong choice of where to spend my "celebrating", and now im celebrating through tears.
i spoke to stephanie's mom earlier, and she thanked me for not being spiteful about danny and stephanie.