hey there.....
it's been a while. so yeah as always there are things that bother me. is there ever a time when im not bothered by like a million things. im making headway in getting rid of my emotional mood swings. i mean there is no point of getting too upset about something, it all passes soon enough and it's all over and i dont even remember what bothered me anymore. yeah but for the past week, i've been bothered by the way ladonna and i have been acting around each other. she was one of my freakin best friends, and all of a sudden after what i have told her on wednesday she got all pissed off and kept being incredibly spiteful towards me. i know it'll pass, we always have those little feuds, but while it's going on, i really dislike the whole feeling. it makes me feel so distant from everyone. but i dont really care too much. speaking about not caring about things....there are around a million people in lehman who say that they "don't care". i just hate it when people make that be the living style. once they "don't care" people start to act like such huge asswholes to everyone. i just hate the way mostly everyone in lehman acts....like they dont care!!why does everyone have to say that thats how they are. deep inside they really do, we all do. ive been also noticing the usual "i dont care clicks" are huge morons. i will not mention names becuase this will come back to me, and i really dont feel like dealing with morons who get offended my me calling them that. if you dislike me categorizing you as a moron, then perhaps you should stop acting like you "dont care", and work on improving you intellectuality. im not saying become a huge smart ass, but just become somewhat decent. i wouldnt condsider myself to be anything, i guess ill leave it up to others to decide whether or not im a moron myself, but i know for a fact that i do care about many things. the necessary ones. i wish i could improve humanity, but all those busy bodies who say that they dont care just make others feel down by their environment.
has anyone ever noticed the way things just cant change around us. why? even if they need to be changed for the better. it usually takes a really long while for events to start changing, and when they do, the need for the change disappears.
well that so much for the topic of change and morons that piss me off. now for another thing that's been bothering me(a little, from time to time).
ok...im anna.....and anna is a pretty spontaneous person, as long as nothing seems to be making me paranoid. having a crush on someone makes me be pretty goddam paranoid. i hate having crushes. well now mine is starting to whither away, and thats just too wonderful!!i dont want to like ***** anymore. i have never spoken to him. and i dont know when i will, until then i just want to be anna, and by that i mean.....well if any good friends of mine are reading this they will know my real side, the happy and friendly one, not the one thats constatly troubled by some wierd feeling that comes, and inhabits my body for a while.
well i would love to stay anf write some more....but i have to go and practice singing "sweet child of mine".....yeah ill be singing that in eigth period on thursday....actually i really hope that i will get a chance to sing it tomorrow. ive been working on it and ive been getting bette. if anyone wants to her me you can come to the music room eigth period on thursday.dave told me i was going to do it then.
heh francis is kind of cute, in this wierd kinda way.why do i get soo easily attracted to random guys, well its a good thing this feeling only comes for a few days.
has anyone ever noticed the way things just cant change around us. why? even if they need to be changed for the better. it usually takes a really long while for events to start changing, and when they do, the need for the change disappears.
well that so much for the topic of change and morons that piss me off. now for another thing that's been bothering me(a little, from time to time).
ok...im anna.....and anna is a pretty spontaneous person, as long as nothing seems to be making me paranoid. having a crush on someone makes me be pretty goddam paranoid. i hate having crushes. well now mine is starting to whither away, and thats just too wonderful!!i dont want to like ***** anymore. i have never spoken to him. and i dont know when i will, until then i just want to be anna, and by that i mean.....well if any good friends of mine are reading this they will know my real side, the happy and friendly one, not the one thats constatly troubled by some wierd feeling that comes, and inhabits my body for a while.
well i would love to stay anf write some more....but i have to go and practice singing "sweet child of mine".....yeah ill be singing that in eigth period on thursday....actually i really hope that i will get a chance to sing it tomorrow. ive been working on it and ive been getting bette. if anyone wants to her me you can come to the music room eigth period on thursday.dave told me i was going to do it then.
heh francis is kind of cute, in this wierd kinda way.why do i get soo easily attracted to random guys, well its a good thing this feeling only comes for a few days.