Way too early...

[happygrass]

I was out of the house at 7am this morning, this is what happens Monday's, as I have to drive to Prestatyn and catch the train from there to Bangor. The earlier train was late, so I ended up catching it rather than my train with the girls, it was nice to be on my own and just think. It was still dark once I got off the train and I wandered around Safeway before I walked the rest of the way to campus. The sheep were really funny this morning. I think they had just been let out of the barn, or wherever they sleep, and they seemed excited to get out and play and eat. I've never seen a sheep gallop through a field before, chasing each other, and I'm sure these sheep were smiling. It reminded me on when i was in primary school and the recess bell rang, it was like a mad dash to the playground. I remember when I got these sparkly pink and silver trainers from Le Chateau, I was in year five or six and I was really stoked about these new shoes. We were skipping, and the older, cooler, girls started taking the piss out of the new pink shoes, as well as the girl wearing them. Tragic then, tragic now, kids are cruel, but I'm learning that adults are no better. Things are no better with Kate, I'm kidding myself if I say they are. The tension is exhausting and to be honest, I can't be asked with any of it. I feel as though I'm making an effort because of the trip in April, and the fact that she already has her ticket, but this is not my problem. I'm going to leave it for now, see what happens, but I've got so much on to be happy and positive about that I'll just need to focus my energy on that. Genuine friendships are hard to develop at this age, I think anyway, so I'll just wait and see how things go. Besides, once I start teaching I'll meet loads of people.
Chatted to Ben on line last night, he cracks me up.