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today was a great day...but awful all at the same time...i wish he could be here all the time.
i just got off the phone with my mom...and she just has this way about her....of making you feel like a dumb worthless peice of crap...i never want to go home...it wouldn't be worth it...i have never had anyone make me feel as bad as she does. She gets mad at me when I don't call her, and when I do she does nothing but yell at me...and you know what I do....i don't say a word, and that just makes her even madder. I cry every freakin time i get off the phone with her because she does this to me every time..and there is freakin no where that I can just be alone around here...if i cry I have to tell 9 girls why i am...sometimes i just want to deal with things on my own. If it were up to me...i would never want to see my mom ever again...i love her...but its not worth it anymore and i don't care. I love my dad...and my brother and sister so much...and i love her to...but she is psyco and there is no way any mom that cared about her daughter would say some of the things she sayes to me. The only time my mom is nice to me is when she wants me to do something or is trying to use what I say against me later.
i am just so frustrated right now.
i just got off the phone with my mom...and she just has this way about her....of making you feel like a dumb worthless peice of crap...i never want to go home...it wouldn't be worth it...i have never had anyone make me feel as bad as she does. She gets mad at me when I don't call her, and when I do she does nothing but yell at me...and you know what I do....i don't say a word, and that just makes her even madder. I cry every freakin time i get off the phone with her because she does this to me every time..and there is freakin no where that I can just be alone around here...if i cry I have to tell 9 girls why i am...sometimes i just want to deal with things on my own. If it were up to me...i would never want to see my mom ever again...i love her...but its not worth it anymore and i don't care. I love my dad...and my brother and sister so much...and i love her to...but she is psyco and there is no way any mom that cared about her daughter would say some of the things she sayes to me. The only time my mom is nice to me is when she wants me to do something or is trying to use what I say against me later.
i am just so frustrated right now.