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I've been on the verge of tears all day. I think it's due to PMS but I am still very sad and almost depressed. The holidays are upon us and I honestly thought it would be easier than it feels like it's going to be. I had Canada Thanksgiving tonight, even though it was on Monday. It was good, turkey, mash potatoes. However it didn't help the homesickness. I just want to cry and maybe crying would help but I'm not so certain.
I spoke with my bf Tara today for an hour and a half, it was great to talk to her. I miss her so much, but she's dealing with the same sort of thing I am so it was good to talk to her. I spoke with my Mom about the plans I have for coming home. I know I shouldn't be planning on coming home just yet, but it helps me get through the days.
I've decided to leave here in May and go to Florida to visit my brother, sister-in-law and nephew. Plus I can go see everyone who still lives in Lakeland and church family. I've decided to go back to school and although I don't want to just yet, I think I will be ready for it in a year. I am going to go back Jan. 2006. I can't believe that Jan. 2006 is almost a year away, that's crazy.
My bf from high school, AJ, is coming to visit tomorrow night. I can't wait, he's going to put me in the best mood. I've got a lot of things planned for us to do and I hope he doesn't get bored for the four hrs. I have to work everyday.
In one of his journals' he said that he was complaining way too much. I totally understand and I hope you all don't think that I hate this place. I really like this place. It's just crazy hard being away from the people you know and love and that love you. I have learned to cherish my family so much more than I had thought I ever would.
I spoke with my bf Tara today for an hour and a half, it was great to talk to her. I miss her so much, but she's dealing with the same sort of thing I am so it was good to talk to her. I spoke with my Mom about the plans I have for coming home. I know I shouldn't be planning on coming home just yet, but it helps me get through the days.
I've decided to leave here in May and go to Florida to visit my brother, sister-in-law and nephew. Plus I can go see everyone who still lives in Lakeland and church family. I've decided to go back to school and although I don't want to just yet, I think I will be ready for it in a year. I am going to go back Jan. 2006. I can't believe that Jan. 2006 is almost a year away, that's crazy.
My bf from high school, AJ, is coming to visit tomorrow night. I can't wait, he's going to put me in the best mood. I've got a lot of things planned for us to do and I hope he doesn't get bored for the four hrs. I have to work everyday.
In one of his journals' he said that he was complaining way too much. I totally understand and I hope you all don't think that I hate this place. I really like this place. It's just crazy hard being away from the people you know and love and that love you. I have learned to cherish my family so much more than I had thought I ever would.