I didn't think it would turn out like this...
I am tired of everything.I think these 2 days away from Tucson will do me good.I am tired of the fast pace life.I need to take a break and stop and smell the roses.I mean I can't take things going so fast.It overwhelms me.I think I just need to stop.And if worst comes to worst I think I will ask my mom if I can either change schools[new people new start?]Or move in with my aunt that lives out of town.But, I do not know yet.I am to stressed out with everything and every one.I can't enjoy anything any more.It makes me feel sad.If I don't clear my head soon.I will either end up going crazy or trying to kill my self.Yes but, I do not want to think of either of those.So Uh let's see.Good things.Uh I passed the AIMS test so I won't have to deal with that.And uh..I am not sick any more but I still sound funny so that means I still am sick?Who knows.I should start going to school more.I have made new friends.Maybe that will help.They seem to be more laid back then everyone else who is all full of drama.I don't like drama that much it seems to over power everything and every one.It sucks!Oh well.There is no real way to get rid of it.So I guess I have to face it head on.And or run from it.I really don't wanna run from it.I shouldn't run away from my problems.I should stop smoking.I should be clean again.Maybe I will.I should stop all the bad things I am doing and become clean.Again.I think that might happin.I don't know.I really don't know any more.I have stoped careing about everything.I am sorry if I have seem really cold and stuff.I am very sorry.I am just trying to take every day one step at a time.Trying to find some where to clear my head.And be me once again.I hate trying to put on a happy face and listening to everyone bitch at me.I don't wanna hear all of your problems all the time.Just becasue I sit there with you doesn't mean I want to hear your life story all the time every day.Every day it seems to be the same thing.Everyone has the same problems that they have every day.The tell me the same thing every day.I do not want to hear the same thing every day.Telling me whats wrong doesn't mean that I can solve it.I can't even solve my own problems.Okay I think I am done.Yes I am done now.I am sorry if you sat there and read about my bitching.I just couldn't sit here with it in any more.I don't have any thing else to say.Good bye.