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[happyduck1979]

Definitely over.  I am so not okay.  I took anti anxieties for the first time in forever, cried myself to sleep for two hours.  I am scared I am headed back to a very bad place this time.  I could have handled the no (not easily, but I was prepared for it).  This being jerked around is more than I can handle.

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[kmelion]

I'm so sorry :( Were they late in getting you the test results?

[happyduck1979]

No. It started positive. With a good number.

[kmelion]

Sweetie, my heart is breaking for you.

[happyduck1979]

thanks. I do not have the strength to do this again.

((HUGS)))

[ext_1317501]

You really don't have to do this again and certainly not in the near future. Take all the time you need to grieve, rant, rail, fume, cry, and stuff yourself with comfort food. There's no need to think about trying this again. If the time will ever come when you'll feel ready, you'll just know it. Certainly not now. NOw's just the time to go through the grieving process. It gets harder and harder though. ((()))))

Re: ((HUGS)))

[happyduck1979]

What gets harder and harder? Losing another pregnancy after a burying a child? We will be trying again after the chagim. I could have dealt with a straight "this cycle did not work". Not the no, yes, maybe, yes no. That we eventually got that ended this morning.

Re: ((HUGS)))

[ext_1317501]

It gets harder and harder to slog one's way through the grieving process. and yes, chemical pregnancies suck. I had three of those. the suspense and yo-yo ride are awful.

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[estherchaya]

It's so hard. I've been there. It's awful. I hope that you ultimately get the answers and the resolution that you desire.