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well I figuared that i should start filling this out more since i have a lot more time on my hands. I woke up early again today. So I laid in bed for a cupla hours drifting in and out. I got up took the custmary shower and got dressed. I came out into the living room to a total sty as usual. No problems here I look foward to something to do. I have started on this cleaning thing. Every day I clean the house and do laundry. ao I cleaned the house and started to play video games. James left to go to work. Al had left already to go to work. ( Al is a guy I met through work life has been giving him shit as well so he is staying with us. he is a great guy.) So anyway i am here playing video games and james calls me up to ask if I want to come up and help him with some "door hanging" type thing. So always looking for a reason to get out of the house I walk up to round table and meet him. We go out to put these post-it stickers on car windows. In between our house and round table there is a high school and a soccor feild. so today there was a football game and soccor tournment going on at the same time. We got a lot done. James brought me home and Al was home to take jessica to work and we have this little family thing going on its cool. I am tired. and I am running uot of steam. But ever the fighter I will nopt give up. So like a month ago I had this Full mental breakdown. I totaly lost it. I am doing a lot better now they have me on meds but I am not wanting to take them. I know I have to which only makes me not want to take them so much more. I don't notic any diffrence other than my lost intrest in sex and I am breaking out again. I had finally gotten my face to clear up. what can you do but deal? I need a job like bad. there are opening over at the courtyard by marriott the is located right accross the freeway. I know I will get the job it just take time. Time what a nusence but we can't rush her she is ever her own leader. well I have run out of things to type so I will type later.