Just Gotta Get It Done.
I'mma be honest here: I don't wanna write a thesis. I never really wanted to write a thesis, and now that it's THE thing standing between me and my next degree, I REALLY don't wanna write it. But I have to. I am NOT quitting this program; it's cost me too much money, and it would cost me even more self-respect. So this is happening. I'm doing it.
I just need to do it, though. I don't have a private office to work in anymore, but I've also been given an assistant to help me. I feel like I have an audience, and that I'm inconveniencing my assistant (who is actually the one getting paid to be in my old office) anytime I go to work there. That's my problem, I know, but bottom line is, I'm getting waaaaay too distracted. I think I need to start transitioning to some kind of sneaky late night / weekend schedule so I can work when no one's around. I might start trying that, because I need to start making headway with this thesis if I ever want to get out of here with a degree and a career.
I know too many people who stalled at school and were never able to find the time or the money to get back to it, and I desperately don't want to end up in that camp. On the other hand, I just don't seem to be motivated enough to get things done in a timely fashion. I think part of my trouble is that I'm enjoying my life out here so much that part of me is going to be really, really sad when this chapter is over and I have to go somewhere else and make new friends and reestablish myself all over again. :-/ (Which is an exciting option, actually, but leaves me feeling insecure and a little bit hollow right now.)
In other news: remember when I used to post about Doctor Who all the time? What happened to those days?
I just need to do it, though. I don't have a private office to work in anymore, but I've also been given an assistant to help me. I feel like I have an audience, and that I'm inconveniencing my assistant (who is actually the one getting paid to be in my old office) anytime I go to work there. That's my problem, I know, but bottom line is, I'm getting waaaaay too distracted. I think I need to start transitioning to some kind of sneaky late night / weekend schedule so I can work when no one's around. I might start trying that, because I need to start making headway with this thesis if I ever want to get out of here with a degree and a career.
I know too many people who stalled at school and were never able to find the time or the money to get back to it, and I desperately don't want to end up in that camp. On the other hand, I just don't seem to be motivated enough to get things done in a timely fashion. I think part of my trouble is that I'm enjoying my life out here so much that part of me is going to be really, really sad when this chapter is over and I have to go somewhere else and make new friends and reestablish myself all over again. :-/ (Which is an exciting option, actually, but leaves me feeling insecure and a little bit hollow right now.)
In other news: remember when I used to post about Doctor Who all the time? What happened to those days?